Arthur Fleck/ Joker X Reader (Completed)

chapter 19

I dropped the plates causing pieces to fly everywhere as they smashed against the ground. The pancakes splattered everywhere as my jaw swung open.
Alice jumped up and looked at me. Joker was wide eyed as he sat on the bed glaring at Alice as if he was about to kill her. His face was screwed up and his cheeks burned red.

"You!" I growled at Alice through gritted teeth as I slapped her across the face. "How dare you pretend to come looking for me and then stab me in the back like this!" I slapped her again.
"And you!" I turned my attention towards Joker. "How was I foolish enough to think you loved me! I should've known. You're just like the rest of them!" I pushed Joker so he fell onto the bed. Then hit him and ran out of the room.

I continued running until I found myself at the end of the garden. The furthest place away from them. I burst into tears as I sat on the tire and began slowly swinging. I felt sick like my stomach had been ripped out of me. The more I tried to wipe away the tears the more my eyes would water.

How could I be so idiotic, so gormless. I was absolutely ludicrous to think he loved me. I mean come on what was I expecting, he's a crazy serial killer! He can't feel love. Arthur felt love, he loved me and only me. But this wasn't Arthur anymore. No this was Joker. And Joker doesn't care about feelings or love or anything close to that. All he cares about is himself.

My thoughts were interrupted by a voice. Joker's voice calling my name. "Stay away from me!" I yelled back. I didn't want to look at him ever again.
He walked in front of me and bent down. "Listen y/n it's not like that" I slapped him across the face and stood up. "No it's exactly like that. You're not the man I fell in love with anymore. You're incapable of love. And you just proved it". I walked away without letting him say anything.

As I walked inside I heard muffled noise coming from inside the room Alice was put in when she first arrived. I opened the door and to my surprise, there sat Alice once again tied up on the chair. She was fighting to get free and she had tape covering her mouth.

I walked towards her and removed the tape. She began gasping as she looked at me. " Joker and his men tied me up! Let me go!" She was shouting and banging her feet against the leg of the chair.

"And why should I? Huh? We were friends! I loved you like a sister" I was heartbroken to say the least. I let it show through my voice as I turned to leave. "Wait! It's not what you think! Remember the code! I would never-" I stopped and turned back to her, striding up to her. I pulled my head close to hers and snarled at her.
"Don't you dare talk about the code to me! I'm not the one who kissed my best friends lover" I kicked the chair so she fell backwards.

"HE SEDUCED ME! HE PULLED ME ON TOP OF HIM!" My words stuck in my throat as I heard this. Was it true? I helped her back up and walked out the room, leaving her behind.
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The night was cold as I climbed into bed. My mind was racing with thoughts. Alice was still in the room I wasn't ready to let her go just yet but I couldn't help but wonder if she was telling the truth. Just then Joker walked into the room. "If you think you're getting into bed with me you can forget it" I didn't bother looking at him I just stayed on my side staring at the wall.

"Please just hear me out" He spoke, not moving. I sat up and frowned at him. "Why should I, Alice told me what happened. I know you pulled her on top of you and now you've tied her to a chair because what- you think she's going to escape and tell on you?" I was beginning to get a headache from all of this.

"Is that what she told you" He scoffed.
"So you'll listen to her but not me?" His voice turned cold. "I tried not to" I retorted.

"Listen y/n she came up to me. She took me by surprise. Saying this was revenge-" I cut him off. I had, had enough.
"You know what I'm sick of listening to the pair of you giving excuses. It's like two school children saying he done this she done that, and I'm the poor teacher who has to deal with it all. I'VE HAD ENOUGH! IF YOU WANT TO BE TOGETHER FINE! I DON'T CARE ANYMORE" I stormed out of the room and downstairs.

I slumped down on the sofa and switched on the TV. I tried desperately to hold back my tears but it was no use. I had never cried this much since living with my mum. I was alone once again. I pulled out a little picture of my dad that I kept on me all the time. "I'm sorry dad, for everything. I wish you were here now, you'd know what to say to make me feel better, you always did" I kissed the photo as I put it back in my pocket.

I let out a deep breath as I felt myself drift off to sleep.