Wherever it takes us

Chapter 37

We were all sitting in the dining table
The table filled with a little of everything
Scrambled eggs, pancakes, waffles, sausage, muffins, fruit, toast and fresh orange juice

We all sat at the wide square table, Michaels both parents on both my sides and Michael across from me

I still feel awkard, michael notices and quickly brings up a conversation that hit me on the face

"So i really want to be a race car driver or a drifter" he says

"Isnt that dangerous?" I look up at him

"If you dont know how to drive then i guess" he shrugs

"I just dont think its a good idea, theres so many accidents i dont want anything to happen to you" i say
"Itll be fine, i promise" he sends me a small smile "but i have a run tomorrow and i really want you to go"
"Michael no" i say

"I think its a good idea, you can go cheer him on loudly at his races" his dad says

I know exactly why he said that

"Yeah you can scream loud for him" his mom says

I mentally bang my head on the table and melt in my seat

Both Michaels parents start cracking up
Michael is trying not to laugh

He kicks my leg under the table "ouch!" I yell

"Sorry babe! I thought it was dads!" He says
i shake my head
I feel embarassed michael quickly changes subject to school and i couldnt be more thankful

By the end of breakfast michaels mom doesnt let me help her clean up and im kind of thankful for that

Michael leads me to his room, as soon as he shuts the door he kisses me roughly and walks me to his bed

He lays me down , his body hovering over mine
He kisses my jawline down to my neck and chest

I put a hand on his chest and push him away
"Michael can we talk?"

He looks at me questioningly and sits up "uh sure whatsup"

I lick my lips and sit up "i uh- i talked to Luke today.."

Michael looked at me with a disappointed look on his face

I wait til he says something
Nothing

"I like Luke.. Alot but then i hardly know him and I like you alot too more than Luke im pretty sure and I-"

"Did you kiss him?" He asks

"Michael i"

"Yes or no" he says
I look down and nod

Michael stands up and paces around the room

"Why do i even try , here i am trying my best to forget what we both did and there you go doing it all over again" he says

" Michael I want to give us another chance, I want there to be an us again" i look at him

He shakes his head "youre not ready, you dont even know what you want"

"I want you"

"But you want him also, answer me this Jacqueline. If i told you i liked you and was trying to fix stuff between us and went to kiss Anna or any other girl how would you feel?" He says

"Bad..." I admit

"Well imagine how I feel, I actually feel worst because i dont have feelings of any type for any other girl and you do"

I dont say anything ... He's right

"You're not ready for an "us", think about what you really want , im leaving.." He walks out of the room

I wait for him to walk back in and nothing

A few seconds later he walks in and leans against the door frame and crosses his arms

"This is my room" he says
Ouch in other words leave already Jackie

I nod and make myself out the room and out the house after saying my goodbyes to his parents

Why is love so complicated
Im 17 i shouldnt be having these problems

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Merry christmas u guys well a day after
But i hope you guys had a lively day and got what you wanted x

My phone stopped working last night and i had the chapters saved in my notes so i had to rewrite this chapter since i dont have access :( so sorry it took me a bit longer after i got 20 votes

Oh and the reason i had it in my notes was becausd 1. I always accidentslly publish them and 2. It sometimes never lets me save a chapter :( lol but thanks for everything ! The big parts of the story are coming im excited!