Wherever it takes us

Chapter 90

after a few minutes of letting Michael play with MJ i decided it was time for him to go to sleep

I took MJ from MIchael and took him to his bedroom, i closed the curtains blocking the sun from coming in

I tease Mj's mouth to check if he's hungry but nothing

I bring him up and start rocking him to sleep

I wish I could sing him to sleep like i always do but he always seemed to enjoy Luke's voice better ,plus all I could think of is literally everything Michael

i sit in the rocking chair and massage his little head "daddy's with us now baby, he's with us. He will love you like I love you, he will coach your football team, he will attend sciene projects, he will be there like I will" i whisper

i hear a faint knock on the door

"come in" I say

the door slowly creeks open, the first thing i notice is the green hair coming into view

"hey.." he says

he makes his way to the small couch ont he other end of the room and looks around

"you decorated all of this?" he seem impressed

i shake my head still rocking MJ

"mom, Gen and Cal got me this whole place and fixed it up when I was in New York for a few months"

"really how come?" he asks

"needed to get away from stuff"

i cant exactly tell him the whole shit with Luke because I dont even want to go there, he's showing change which says something right?

MJ starts pulling my hair and I sigh "baby go to sleep you were suppose to take a nap an hour ago" i whine

"can I try it?" he asks

if I cant make him go to sleep what makes him think he can?

"I uh, are you sure? I mean do you even know how to sleep babies?"

"I took care of Michelle remember?"

so many Michelle's nowadays .........

"thats different she was bigger"

he shakes his head "I dont remember frankly what happened but Im sure i saw her as a baby"

i roll my eyes just at the thought of him taking care of Chrissys daughter

I get up slowly and hand him MJ

Mj stares at himblankly before Michael rocks him and shushes him to sleep... well trying

I take in my view, Im still completely speechless at the fact that Michael is here, im so thankful but my feelings are so confused right now I cant even think straight

I think im staring at them both for a good time because Michael stands in front of me and waves his hand around "are you okay?"

i nod "yeahh, just thinking'

"i know" he faintly smiles

"im- im going to go to the bathroom real quick"

he nods and sits back on the couch

i slowly walk out and head straight to my room and lay down

i dig my face into the pillow and sigh deeply

Michaels back hes fucking back

I finally fixed stuff with Luke and he loves MJ

im not over Michael, hell I doubt ill ever be over him

but im scared its just the shocking new that i feel like ill never get over him

I dont even know

i feel someone sigh and feel the bed sinking down next to me, i turn and Luke is sitting next to me rubbing my back "you okay babe?"

i turn around to face him and nod "so many thoughts and emotions, thats all"

he nods "i understand, I dont know what to fucking think about all of this but right now its better to just clear everything up with Michael and figure out what happened"

he's right i shouldnt be worrying that much about whats going to happen, the main focus right this instant is not only MJ but to know what exactly happened with Michael

"ill be waiting in the livivng room, Calum says he's at work but he doesnt know anything yet" he says and pecks my lips

i smile weakly and nod "okay, and ill be there as soon as we can sleep Mj"

"do you want me to sleep him?" he asks

i shake my head "no, thats okay"

I know Luke got attached to MJ so I dont know how this will work

i get up from bed and go into Mjs room, i would expect to see a struggling Michael but instead I find sleeping Mj ontop of sleeping Michael

both with an earphone on their ear

i expect it to be extremely low because it can hurt the babys hearing

i smile at my view, I cant deny its darn adorable

I walk closer to my boys, I mean my boys no i mean the boys ugh and check the earphone, I dont recognize the song but its a slow song and its low so thats clear

I slowly took MJ from Michael and laid him in his playpin, I cant say crib anymore because he tries to get off, one time he almost fell off , it was the scariest shit ever

I make my way towards Michael and shake him lightly

"Michael, wake up"

nothing, like always

"Michael, come on wake up " he slowly opens his eyes and smiles once he sees me

"hey, sorry I fell asleep"

"its okay, do you want to go to the living room now?" i ask

he nods and gets up, before i can walk out or anything Michael pulls me close and attaches his lips to mine in a very passionate way

this hurts but i pull away "im sorry, I - i cant, not right now"

"Luke right?" he asks

i nod "besides that, theres so much on my mind, i love you so much i do but im so confused all my feelings are all over the place and I just have to think about everything" i say

"its fine I understand, but thanks for taking care of the baby, you're a great mom i always knew you would be" he kisses the end of my lip "I love you"

i kiss his cheek and hug him "i love you too"

"ahem" someone says

i turn around and Luke stands there awkardly "living room yeah?"

i nod and smile at him "sorry"

the three of us walk to the living room , I sit next to Genesis letting Michael and Luke sit next to each other on the other couch

"so what happened? dont leave anything out because its driving us insane" Genesis says

i nod

"everything?" Michael asks and looks at me

"yeah"

"okay then"