Fallin' All In Love

Chapter 12

Camila's pov

I'm not gonna lie, I wasn't really expecting much going on this "date" with Shawn. It's not because of him but my mindset going into this was just that we were two friends who barely knew each other going out to eat.

And that's true, we are just two friends, I think we're just two people who liked each other and felt a connection towards each other on the first day of meeting.

I'm so happy Shawn asked for my number and that we ran into each other at the library. The date went extremely well, I didn't know what to call it so I eventually asked him what this was.

"I'm loving this, uhm..what is this?"

"What do you mean."

"Like is this a date?"

"Do you want it to be a date?" He asked smiling.

"Yeah..sure, it's a date...I went on a date today with Shawn Mendes."

"Sounds about right to me." We both chuckled.

That was ofcourse after we talked about most things in our lives. It was so weird, the conversation was so smooth, we never ran out of things to say and honestly that is so rare. Like we barely know each other, well knew, cause after this date I can say I know much more about Shawn and I'd say same way with him, we told each other a lot.

But yeah it is so weird to not run out of things to say with someone who it was your first time really conversing with. But honestly, I'm not super surprised or anything, I did feel like a connection with him weirdly enough. Clearly, he did too with me.

I told him about Rose cause I caught him smiling at some kids running around and I asked him if he liked kids and he said yes. He told me all about how much he loves them and how precious they are which i totally agree.

Rose is my world and I don't know what I'd do without her bright energy with me everyday. I could be having a bad like the worst day and she'd bright it up with just her near presence and she does that with everybody. She's the coolest most beautiful little girl.

He was smiling the whole time while i was telling him all about Rose. It was the cutest thing. Based on his reaction from hearing about Rose and his bright beautiful adoring smile when he was looking at the kids give me the impression that he'd honestly be the best dad ever. I'm not even kidding, this guy's magic.

But he seemed a bit tense when I mentioned that I had a kid and I asked him if it bothered him he said no and that he loved that I had a kid and honestly i could see that. But i couldn't help but wonder if the reason he looked a bit tense was because he thought that maybe I was with Rose's dad.

I don't blame him for thinking that but it should've crossed his mind that I could be a single mom. But I get it though. So I ended up asking him about it.

"You seem a bit tense, what's wrong."

"What do you mean, i'm perfectly fine, I'm not tense." He said looking at me but that didn't convince me.

"Shawn something's clearly bothering you, is it because you think that I'm in a relationship with Rose's dad or something?"

"No....what made you think that." He said looking everywhere but me. Okay well he's lying and he definitely thinks I'm in a relationship.

"Shawn."

"Okay you're right but like I was just wondering you know, I mean don't take it the wrong way you could totally be a single mom, single moms rock, they're amazing but I just wanted to make sure, I'm sorry." He was kind of stuttering over his words and he seems nervous and he's so cute and i couldn't help but laugh.

"Shawn it's okay, don't apologize, I get it." I said smiling.

"Really?..so I'm good?"

"Yeah." I told him chuckling.

"So...are you single or.."

"Yeah I am, I've been single for as long as I can remember. If you're wondering what happened..."

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." he said cutting me off.

"No it's okay, I trust you," he smiled "Her dad left when she was one and I haven't heard of him ever since."

"Did he just leave? like..did he have a reason as to why he left?"

"No not at all, we were okay, we weren't like going to break up or anything. I did all I could and I was there for him and for our relationship. He literally just left one day...leaving behind a note where he basically said that he's sorry and that he couldn't do it anymore and I was so confused. I didn't know what he meant when he said "he couldn't do it anymore" like do what. I was a mess, I cried for days, i even blamed myself over and over again for it. I'd tell myself that I'm stupid and worthless and that I wasn't good enough for him. But i guess i got over it with time. I wrote a lot and I honestly couldn't have done it without my family. They moved here to help me with Rose and my friend Olivia was super there for me too when it all went down. I couldn't be more grateful for them. And then Rose she just made everything better, she'd always brighten my mood, she's amazing and crazy, super sassy." Damn that was long as fuck, but he listened to everything I said and his face went from disgust to angry to empathy to amazed.

"Wow i...I'm so sorry...you're really strong and that asshole doesn't know what he's missing out on, and also Rose sounds like an out of this world kid so I'm really excited to meet her hopefully soon."

"Yeah I'm over it and I don't care anymore, I later came to realize that he doesn't deserve me or Rose and yeah we'll see, you'll probably meet her soon." I told him smiling, it felt good telling him all that.