Love Never Felt This Good

Darling, I'm A Mess

*Lily’s POV*

I tried calling Michelle all week but it only goes to voice mail. I even tried calling James but he never answers.

My mother agreed to go back to her medication and she’s been doing better. School’s been a pain in the ass. Teachers were on my case about some out dated papers. I agreed on doing it in break.

I did that and then skipped the rest of the school day. I went home instead.

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My mother was out for the night with some friends of hers which meant that I was home alone.

My choices were to stay at home and be miserable or to go out and forget about Michelle if that was even possible.

I chose the second one.

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The uber driver stopped in front of a club called ‘The Night Owl’. It wasn’t anything fancy which means that my chances of bumping into Michelle would be very little.

I was wearing a purple, mid-thigh length dress with black hills. My hair straight but kind of messy. I wore a Mauve lip gloss and some mascara. Nothing too fancy.

“Here we are miss.” The driver said opening the door for me. “Have a good night miss.” With that he left.

My heart was beating so fast. My nerves were done. I took a deep breath and walked up to the bouncer.

“Age?” He asked not looking at me.

“Twenty one.” I said with my best poker face.

He looked me up and down and then opened the door for me.

“Have a good time miss.” He said in a deep voice as I walked past him and into the club.

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I was welcomed with the overwhelming smell of alcohol and cigarette smoke.

“Karaoke night has officially began. Sign up at the left and then select a song on the right.” An old woman said from the mini-stage and then walked off.

I wasn’t in the mood, so instead I went up to the bar and ordered some tequila shots.

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Twelve shots of tequila later I found myself on the stage with the beginning of  ‘Darling I’m a mess by Sabrina Carpenter’ playing.

Here goes nothing... I thought to myself as I started singing the lyrics.

“This might be wrong, but he's all I know
He's all I know

And most times I pretend that he's just a friend
He's just a friend

Yeah I'll try to make our hearts beat in time,
Even though your rhythm might not be with mine

But darling I'm a mess without your love
Heaven knows I'm trying, I'm trying to get by

But darling I'm a mess without your love
All I need is one more goodbye kiss

Your lips on this
'Cause they're all I know

I can't let you go
And I won't forget, all that you said is engraved in my head

Yeah I'll try to make our hearts beat in time,
Even though your rhythm might not be with mine

But darling I'm a mess without your love
Heaven knows I'm trying, I'm trying to get by

But darling I'm a mess without your love
All I need is, one more goodbye kiss
A goodbye kiss

Yeah I'll try to make our hearts beat in time,
Even though your rhythm might not be with mine

But darling I'm a mess without your love (Without your love)

Heaven knows I'm trying (Woah)
Trying to get by (No, no, no, no, no, no)

But darling I'm a mess without your love,
All I need is one (one more) more goodbye (goodbye) kiss

All I could think about was Michelle. Right through the whole song she was the only thing running through my brain.

By now I was crying. Tears just kept on falling down my cheeks. A pair of hands held my shaking shoulders as I cried on some lady’s chest.  She smelling like gin and smoke.

She walked me to the bathroom where she wiped my face dry and re-applied my mascara.

“Queens don’t cry, my dear.” She held my chin up and looked into my eyes. She was breath taking. She has shoulder length copper-red hair and green-blue eyes.

“So, some boy broke your heart. Screw him. Whoever he was, he wasn’t worthy of your love. Best way to get your revenge is by moving on.” With that she left me in the bathroom.

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“Baby, please. It’ll be over before you know it.” The guy begged. He was a rebound I guess.

I was taking that lovely strangers advice. Only this guy wanted to move a little too fast for me.

“Dan. My answer is still no.”

“Alright then. Two more shits please.” He said to the bartender who obliged.

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A few more shots later I found myself back in the bathroom. Only this time I wasn’t with a woman. Dan was with me. Pinning me against the sink. Everything went by so fast. Dan was in and out of me before I could even stop him. I tried screaming and kicking, but he was too strong.

When he was done he left and I fell to the floor in tears. Everything was sore and I couldn’t move.

The woman from before came in. Her sweet blue-green eyes widened at the sight of me.

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