Out From Within the Shadow

Not Yourself

"You don't seem yourself today."

or equally,

"I don't feel myself."

Is this from your emotions

or from within poor health?

If these comments come about

from a lack of smiles.

Do they really know the one

who walks along these miles?

Life isn't all smooth sailing,

there are waves along the way.

There is a time for lacklustre

as well as a time to play.

One without the other

is the balance tipped one side.

How can you feel happiness

if inside you have not cried?

The state of no emotion

is supposedly such bliss.

I'd feel just like a robot though,

my liveliness I'd miss.

Yes,

it's great in meditation.

In this,

the world is blocked.

The silence there shows a different place

and your feelings are tightly locked.

In my life of every day though

emotions and feelings will rise.

I'll live my life in laughter

as equally in sighs.

Being able to feel them,

alive,

this keeps me so

and bringing them up

and experiencing them

helps me let them go.

I cry if I am happy

and also if I'm sad.

Sometimes

it can make me laugh

if someone makes me mad.

I live within expression.

I've always lived to laugh.

It's a way to show,

to the highest degree,

how to be plain daft.

I'd rather that than nothing

and feel no life in me.

Whatever it is I feel inside

is there for the world to see.

It's tough if some can't take it.

Let them move away.

I'm opening my door to colour

and staying out of the grey.

My colours

may be light or dark

and of a different hue.

Whichever one I'm wearing

I may not have a clue.

If I present these feelings

and not keep them locked away

I'll be expressing all my colours

even those of disarray.