Out From Within the Shadow

The Leap of Faith

Swimming across the abyss,

where the water is so deep,

surely if I need to stop,

I'll enter eternal sleep.

All that I have within me

is breath and length of arm

and the ability to kick my legs

to keep me safe from harm.

I went in for the first dip.

I panicked and struggled free.

I got back to the waters' edge

to take some time for me.

I sat there on the rock pile

to take in all the length;

to make it to the other side,

will I have the strength?

Holding in a breath of mine

and trying to set the pace.

Trying to work out

the time it will take

until I next touch base.

I know I can swim strongly

and I can float upon my back,

maybe it won't be so hard

for me to stay on track.

It's what is there beneath me,

within those waters deep,

what may also be waiting

when I take my leap.

Is this marred with fear though

or is it just unknown?

This will be a chance for me

to see how much I've grown.

Do I want to see this?

Do I have a need

or can I now just free the way

for me to just proceed?

I cannot

at all

just jump in.

I'll climb down from the side.

Easing myself in gently

so I have time to bide

the temperature,

the emotions,

the feeling of nothing below.

Getting myself ready

so I can just let go.

I grip with my foot underneath

to find a place to push.

It is time to get going!