People say chin up ,
But I feel like giving up
People say smile and
It will go away ,
But I fill like crying everyday
Everything takes effort to do
This constant pain is hard to live through
I lay in bed
And see the day dawning,
Hate myself for waking up that morning
I know I need help
And I know I need support
Don't want to spend my life feeling this way ,its just too short
But I can't seem to speak out ,
Say what this feeling is all about
Even if I'd tell someone ,what could they do ?
I don't think they could fix this ,do you?
I'm so sick and tired of feeling this way
I want my smile and laughter to be real and be happy
There's sometimes in the day when I forget about it all ,
When I smile and laugh ,but then I remember its like a ten thousand foot fall
Do you know whats its like for your eyes to constantly sting?
Do you know whats it like to be happy and at the same time feel nothing
I don't think I could end it without living the rest of my life
See ,my mind and body shudder when I think of picking up a knife
But I really don't think I can carry on this way
Feeling so low and empty each and everyday
It's hard for me to admit to myself exactly what's wrong
Hard for me to show myself that I'm not that strong
The idea of happiness ,you may say I'm a little obsessed
But I think right now I finally see ... I'm depressed.
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PoetryI've been writing for years . And some of my works on here were written when I was younger and didn't have the best understanding of writing .So bear with me because those don't reflect who I am as a writer anymore . . . . I believe, the BEST way t...
