Just hiding behind a fake smile
Overeating most days and undereating the rest
Staying isolated so you don't get caught in the abuse that happens
Feeling
Lost
Fat
Worthless
Lost
Fat
Worthless
Etc
Thinking about killing yourself every single second
Scared to tell somebody because they will call you an attention seeker
But all you want is for somebody to connect to
Somebody who will understand ..
And who you can talk to and they can talk to you
Being lazy
Living a life others see when outside or not in your room
Then another sad ,lonely ,lost , worthless life living in a house
That's abusive physical ,emotional , sexually ,mentally ,verbally
Cutting everyday knowing somebody will know you've changed
And they will know about your cuts saying you just an attention seeker
Knowing you've been hiding it for 6 years ....
Knowing you've attempted 2 times nearly 3 next weeks
It doesn't get better but I tell people it does so they keep going
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I was contemplating putting this here but I've now ,been going through a lot lately but safe to say I'm good now though
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To me, the most difficult thing about depression
Is inability to anticipate future joy
And an inability to see a variable future
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PoetryI've been writing for years . And some of my works on here were written when I was younger and didn't have the best understanding of writing .So bear with me because those don't reflect who I am as a writer anymore . . . . I believe, the BEST way t...
