Adopted By Markiplier

Chapter 76-Sam's Journal

Sam's POV

It has been a few months since I attempted to take my own life. The weirdest thing though is that I was supposed to be hanged, but I somehow ended up getting attacked by the cougar and that they don't know if I was able to make it out alive due to blood loss and stuff. However, I can't shake something like that off like everyone else does, which I also find unusual, they should be worried, maybe they don't want to worry me more or they want to stay strong for my own sake. I don't know what's going on, but I will eventually find out sooner or later.

Anyway, throughout my recovery, Dr. Schneeplestein told mom and dad that I need to see a therapist, which they listened to. At first, I wasn't sure if it was going to work out, but as I attended to the appointment, things started to go smoothly. However, I feel like I wasn't being completely honest with my therapist, so what he did was that he gave me a journal for me to write down for good purpose. So, whenever I want to express something at least I can write something down or do something with it. To be honest, it works! Well for me.

However, it doesn't mean things go uphill from there. When my friends decided to visit me, Roger and Will were so relieved to find me being okay and well. Lucy somewhat was angry with me, she even slapped me and called me a fool for trying to take my own life. At first, I thought she hated me for doing that, but when I look at her in the eyes, I can see that she was deeply in pain. She did calm down and apologized to me afterwards as she gave me a hug. She told me that she just lost a friend, and that she didn't want to lose another one. Which I kinda understand where she's coming from, but how exactly slapping a person will solve anything?

Then, there's Casey. Casey... well... she didn't bother to show up at all. Will told me that him and Casey had an argument and things got a bit escalated. That Will and Casey can't really interact anymore. Lucy tried to get Casey to visit me once, but Casey refused to visit me and it hurts.

Fortunately my suspension is over, but I need a little more time to recover in mentally. So far, I'm feeling a little better, the only that's holding me back from wanting to go back to school are the kids that caused this. I don't know how they're going to do if they find out that I'm still here. I talked to my friends about it, and they told me that I don't need to worry about any of that, because this time, they're going to be by my side, because everyone knows that "the power of friendship is magic" or whatever the cliché narrative is.

Anyway, I'm going to bed, once I wake up, I'm going to find Casey and hopefully I can have a nice chat with her. Wish me luck!

I stop writing, placing my notebook and pencil in the backpack and go in my bed. I can feel my heart pounding against my chest and the anxiety building up in my body. I take a deep breath and slowly release it as I thought to myself that everything is going to be okay, you're going to make it through. I lay myself back down staring at the ceiling as I still ponder things to myself, I want to fall asleep, but my brain refuses to shut down, which I groan in annoyance wondering when this nightmare will end.

(A.N: I'm back home! I'm debating if I should keep that style whenever Sam is writing her inner thoughts on the journal (probably one of my excuses why I'm a little lazy or why some sentences doesn't make sense, but our inner thoughts doesn't make sense hahaha!) anyway, I hope you guys enjoy it and there will be more. I'll see you guys in the next chapter! Buh-bye! :D )- MadCat