Behind the Mask

~Chapter 10~

I leaned back on the bed, but this time he followed, his lips pressed tightly against mine. I smiled in excitement, and I could feel his smile too through the kiss. It was going to happen tonight. Well, it seemed appropriate. It had been the best day of my life, why not make it the best night, as well? 

This time, he went slower and I liked that, it seemed like all the hunger was gone or at least diminished, replaced with pure care and tenderness.

He took my dress off, as I worked on his shirt and jeans. To be honest, being here with him only in my underwear made me feel less exposed than on that stage, in front of all those people. Somehow, I thought he felt pretty much the same. 

This should be a piece of cake for him after all, he had probably slept with tons of girls before. But something in his eyes made me change my mind, he seemed....nervous. Maybe even a bit scared.

"Yoongi.....you've done this before, right?" I asked, suddenly a little scared too.

"Um....I don't know how to say this, but....no, not really." His eyes suddenly drifted away from my face, as he couldn't hold my gaze any longer. 

He started to back away off of me, probably embarrassed as hell for some reason, and only then I realized he probably thought I had more experience than him in bed. After all, I didn't get to tell him I was just as clueless as he was.

"Well I haven't done this before either, so come here. You don't need to be nervous, it's just me and you here, so.....try to relax, okay?"    

He took a deep breath, obviously relieved, then nodded. I pulled him closer and he leaned over my body once again, kissing the bare skin of my neck. Until then, I didn't know that would be my soft spot, but the way he kissed it made me shiver under his touch, as I felt his tongue trace small circles on my skin.

Just when I thought it couldn't get any better, he gently bit my skin, leaving a tiny love-mark behind. That would definitely look worse in the morning, but I would find an explanation. 

Right now, I didn't want anything to stop us from being together, just standing here with him seemed to be my favorite thing in the world.

And even as he seemed a little nervous at first, I should admit he was surprisingly good at this. He quickly removed the scrunchie from my hair, making it fall around my shoulders, separating the two of us from the rest of the world in our own happy place.

He then proceeded to trace a trail of kisses along my jawline going all the way up to my ear, nibbling at the soft lobe before biting it gently. 

I let out a loud moan and quickly tried to cover my mouth, but he just took my hands and kissed them both before pulling them away from my face.

"You're so beautiful when you blush", he whispered. 

Well in that case, I was probably looking God damn gorgeous right now as I watched him lean lower to trail butterfly kisses down my chest, brushing his lips against my skin while gently caressing my hips, tugging at the hem of my underwear.

It was pure luck that precisely that day I had given up my usual white, dotted panties and had replaced them with black laced ones, which seemed to be driving Yoongi crazy. 

He looked at me and, for a few seconds, his gaze softened, his eyes filled with so much love and admiration that my heart did a small flip in my chest.

"Is this okay, love?" he asked, and I realized his hands were still on the hem of my underwear, waiting for my permission. I just nodded, finding myself at loss of words when he began to remove it, his eyes never leaving mine for a second.

I gulped a little nervously, and as soon as he noticed my gesture he leaned down to kiss my cheek, giving me a reassuring smile. 

"Everything is going to be alright, Jen. I will make this special just for you. I promise" he whispered and pointed two fingers at me, which I soon began to suck on, while staring into his eyes.

He let out a small moan and closed his eyes at my touch, the not-so-subtle tent in his boxers getting even bigger, making me feel pretty damn satisfied that I could pleasure him so easily.

Soon, he pulled his fingers out of my mouth and looked at me once more, but I just nodded at him confidently before telling him to continue. He grabbed one of my hands and kissed my lips softly before he slowly introduced a finger inside me, making me gasp at the sudden flash of pain that crossed my body.

I squeezed his hand a little, making him chuckle as he whispered sweet nothings in my ear to sooth me down before adding a second finger. 

It would all go away soon, Jen, I told myself. This pain....it's just preparing you for what's coming next. This is Yoongi's first time as well so, it should be special for him too. Suck it up, girl. You can do this. 

After a few intense minutes of prepping me, Yoongi pulled his fingers out and placed on a condom he must have been carrying around with him -that little bitch knew he was gonna get lucky!- and positioned his member in front of my entrance.

I closed my eyes in anticipation, and soon I could feel his member making its way inside me, until it finally came to a stop, as he was entirely in.

I could hear Yoongi sigh in pure pleasure above me and I dared to take a peak at him, only to see him staring back at me, with a small smile on his face. 

"Ready?", he asked.

"Ready." I smiled back at him, knowing that there would be no other man who could be more careful than he would.

He began to thrust slowly inside me, and the flashes of pain slowly faded away, replaced by sweet stings of pleasure as I began to lift my hips up in order to meet his.

He moaned loudly at the friction, making me want to do it again. So I did, again, and again, watching small drops of sweat form on his forehead from the effort. 

Then, a small idea crept up in the corner of my mind, making me offer him a sly grin. I suddenly flipped us over so that I would be on top, making him glance at me with a surprised look on his face.

I placed my hands on his chest before beginning to move up and down his member, making him groan in ecstasy at the feeling. 

I traced the shape of his arms with my fingers, following every curve and turn in order to discover him entirely, the feeling of his skin engraved in my memory.

Still, my thoughts got interrupted by a sudden whimper from Yoongi, as he was now very close. When he looked into my eyes, he smiled and came into the condom, with a proud look on his face.

I chuckled at his dorkness and leaned down beside him on the sheets, burying my face in the crook of his neck with a satisfied sigh.  

"So...how was first time?" I asked with a grin.

"Memorable. Thank you, for making it special for me too. I love you, Jen."

"And I love you. Good night, dork!"

He laughed softly before wishing me a good night, turning off the lights and allowing himself to step into the land of dreams, but not before pulling me closer to his chest. He kissed the top of my head with tenderness and held me like that until I relaxed in his arms, a dreamless slumber taking over my body as well. 

It had indeed been the best night of my life.