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NOLA
I still can't believe my face is bruised like this, I'm embarrassed more than anything. How could I let shit go this far? I swiftly walked to my car unlocking the door. I got in but I just sat there. I never started the car. I truly didn't wanna go home but if I didn't who knows what he'd do this time. I sighed and closed my eyes. I'm so disappointed. I mean., what happened? I was supposed to have made it out yet here I am becoming a statistic. After a while I heard a faint tapping but I thought nothing of it. Then the tapping got faster and louder.
I looked over and there Nasir was leaned into my window with a look of desperation all over his face. "Great." I mumbled. "As if I need to hear his mouth right now." I rolled down the window waiting for him to speak. He licked his full sized lips and stared directly into my eyes causing me to cross my legs. (ah ha ha *spice adams voice*)
"Nola I ain't just letting you walk away from this. So you might as well tell me now before I go find out myself." I chuckled and shook my head. "I'm fine."
"I know you're not fine." I laughed again but I could tell it was annoying him. "Listen, You can keep this act going on for yourself but I don't need it. I know you. I know you ain't good. Just tell what's going on. I wanna help you."
"No-" "Unlock the door." His face got stiff and his eyes felt like they was staring into my soul. I felt damn near naked. Like he saw everything without me telling him. "W-What?" I asked as if I didn't hear him. "Unlock the door." I did as I was told like a bitch and he swung the door open. "Go inside and upstairs. I'm on my way up there." Once again, I followed orders like a punk and went upstairs, speaking to Nana Grace on the way.
I looked around his old room seeing childhood memories and posters. His old shoe boxes stacked up and his bed perfectly made. I sat on the bed and fiddled with my nails waiting for him to come up. Soon enough he walked in, closing the door behind him. "Why you protecting him?" He asked sitting beside me. I wasn't protecting him..I just don't like people in my business. "Why does it matter what i'm doing? It's just not important okay? It was one time." I answered. "That one time is never the last time." He shot back.
He had a point. "Well, I can handle myself Nas. I'm a big girl." I said trying to make light of the conversation. He stared at me causing me to look down at the cream colored carpet. His hand reached over and tilted my face toward him.
"Can I be honest with you? " He asked. "I wouldn't want you to lie to me so I'd say yeah." He laughed a little bit before he continued. "I always cared about you." I shook my head in confusion. "i know that Nas. That's why we were friends."
"No..I cared about you. I still do." It almost felt like time stopped. "I never knew how to go about it..You were too good for me it felt like."
