Obliviously In Love

One

I blew out a big puff of smoke letting it dissolve into the air.

I've always wondered why smoke looked so much liked rain clouds.

We smoke to be happy and others smoke to die, I mean I don't smoke.

God I don't think I'll ever smoke.

I just like using vapors to calm me down.

People smoke to get away from stress, to feel good again

And so the cigarette produces our happiness

But happiness is like a cloud, if you stare at it long enough, it evaporates

And I just want to keep puffing and blowing until I can't anymore

Until all the light and happiness inside me is drained out and gone.

I turn to the side of my bed turning my music up allowing Ed Sheeran to fill my ears.

" JESSICA " my mum yells with a loud bang on my door, causing me to fall on to the floor

" JESSICA I KNOW YOU ARE IN YOUR ROOM " she yells again

 I just stay lay there on the floor for a moment quietly praying she will leave.

" JESSICA OPEN UP  OR WE'LL TURN OFF THE WIFI " my dad yells over the music 

Ha, they wouldn't dare turn off the wifi

What did I do this time and how long will I be grounded....

There's another bang.

" YEAH YEAH MAMA I'M COMING " I groan dusting myself off

"There's a reason I put a sign on my door it's so no one disturbs" I mutter 

The banging only gets louder.

" I'm coming! Just give me one second "

"Honey it's important that we talk to you right now" my mom says through the door

" Am I in trouble?" I ask opening my door a little bit before making room for them to come into my bedroom.

"I mean whatever you think I did I didn't do it" I assure them but quite not feeling sure myself.

"No you aren't in trouble..... not yet I suppose" dad chuckles smiling at me.

Somethings up.

I turn off my music

" What's going on" I ask after a moment

There was some silence and they were smiling.

Like the commercial smile the parents always do but without the dread in their eyes.

The Atmosphere was so weird and .... calm?

"Oh my god! " I scream clapping my hands

" What? " my parents scream back at me.

" Are you pregnant! Mama I'm so happy for you!! " I ask excitedly jumping up and down

" No! " they both say harshly

" Not that I know of anyways " Dad says looking at mom

" That's a team effort Alfredo, I'm not pregnant Jess" she says punching his arm

" Okay ew." I cringe covering my face with the pillow

Looks like I'm not having any brother or sisters anytime soon.

I've always wanted two or three even one would've been just fine.

Preferably two boys and another girl my age or close to it.