Obliviously In Love

Twenty-Four

Jessica's P.O.V

Monday

I wake up in a lightly dim room nurses and doctors in white masks surrounding me poking at me if I'm some kind of alien creature.

They're all staring at me with relieved eyes and a bunch of sighs , the strong smell of disinfectant hits me and I start to cough loudly holding my stomach.

I groan laying back down as the nurses roll me out of the emergency room and into a hospital room.

" Hello Mrs.Thompson , I'm your Doctor Seth Stevens I have a few things to clear and just verify and bare in mind this was recccomended by the hospital we're not trying to be nosy or any of the such it's our job to help you so before you decline which you probably will do take it under consideration." He explains I give him a slight nod signalling for him to continue.

" You've lost alot of blood and we've seen your self harm marks and we would like to send you off to a therapy retreat for maximum 2 weeks or so you can meet other people who have the same situation as you people who can help you breakthrough your suicidal thoughts and for the first few weeks you're there it'll be free and if you like then we can arrange something with your parents to allow you to stay long but they'll watch you for a few days before they let you to explore the area or out of there sight it's a really good offer do take it under consideration Jessica " He looks at me trying to get a reaction out of me but I am still trying to take in all this new information.

" No , No " I refuse crossing my hands

" We also know about your Amnesia " He adds looking through the papers in his clipboard

" Um , I actually was only aware of this recently could you explain to me what kind of Amnesia I have or something or what this is all about even " I sit up on the bed

" Jessica.... " Seth starts putting his clipboard down.

" You are not the only one who has experienced this before but yours is a kind of rare type and we would like to run some tests so that we check if everything is okay , we will make appointment for that another day.The type of amnesia you seemed to have that I can remember from the last time I went through some test was it 2 years ago? Well it's called dissociative (psychogenic) amnesia, stems from emotional shock or trauma, such as being the victim of a violent crime. In your case thinking you lost your sister. In this disorder, a person may lose personal memories and autobiographical information, but usually only briefly. " He explains

I feel my eyes get watery but I hold them back not wanting to look effected.

" The risk factors are , Brain Surgery , Head injury or Trauma , Strokes , Alchol abuse , Seizures but since you've never experinced that I'm sure you only have temporary Amnesia or something like that like memory loss so we can't officially say for sure you have Amnesia. " He starts

He continued saying "We saw your bruises and those bruises really aren't normal bruises , listen if you've been abused in the past or are in an abusive relationship or anything like that then you have to tell someone. You may think you can be strong and you can get through it alone but you need help no matter what abusive relationships or expriences leave marks in many ways emotionally physically and mentally it's not healthy and obviously one day someone is going to ask questions. " He tells me sitting beside my bed now

That's when it clicked.

I can remember all those memories I locked away telling myself to forget and I finally did but now it's come back to eat me alive then spit me out so I can be shamed upon and treated like dirt.