Book 5: Harry Potter reader insert

Chapter 15: Worries

Hi your friendly neighborhood author here, just a quick thing here I use (F/c) in this part so for anyone who doesn't know this means favorite color, so yeah that's all, hopefully you guys are all doing well and I'll see you guys soon.

Well not exactly see, well maybe I have seen some of you before, I mean it's possible I know some of the people reading this I mean it's possible so... what was I talking about, would that expression work here? Or would it be what was I writing about? Because I'm not technically talking but then again it's just an expression... shit I got a tad off topic sorry, anyway enjoy this chapter.

"I thought he'd never leave" Hermione said pulling (Y/n) into a nearby store.

"Yeah Ronald can be thick sometimes... well all the time." (Y/n) said pulling Hermione into a hug and kissing her.

"I still can't believe I'm dating her, I mean she's Hermione! The smartest witch in our year, not to mention how beautiful she is, and I'm just me a weird looking kid who's a potential arsonist." (Y/n) thought to himself as he walked hand in hand with Hermione through Hogsmeade.

"She could probably date anyone in our year, and yet she chose me, a weird one armed kid. She probably could've dated Harry, the chosen one, the youngest seeker in the century. Or Ron, I mean he's... tall I guess?"

This had always puzzled (Y/n) "why me?" Was a question he'd often ask himself. What did he have that no one else did? "I'm not particularly good looking, I'm not the smartest, the only thing I'm good at is making fire, so why me?"

Suddenly Hermione stopped and turned to him "Is something wrong (Y/n)?" Hermione asked him. "It looks like something is troubling you"

"Umm well yeah there kinda is" (Y/n) said, feeling the anxiety rise in him.

"Well it's just..." (Y/n) wasn't quite sure how to approach this, in the end he decided not to beat around the bush and just come out with it.

"Why are you dating me? I mean I'm not exactly handsome or smart and I'm terribly unfunny and my ears stick out a bit too much, and I'm too thin, and my head is a weird shape and-"

Hermione cutting him off by pressing her lips against his, shutting him up. "I'm dating you because I love you (Y/n), to me you are perfect. It's easy to see our own faults and I know it's hard to see yourself as I see you; as others see you but believe me all those faults you think you have are not real, they're just in your head."

Hermione pulled him into a tight hug and whispered into his ear.

"You. Are. Perfect. You are handsome. You are smart. You are funny. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise"

(Y/n) felt a warm fuzzy feeling in his stomach. It really did help hearing these things from Hermione. He had always been critical of himself, always looking for the smallest detail that he didn't like, always putting himself down.

(Y/n) had never truly been satisfied with himself, no matter what he did there was always a small voice in the back of his head, an omnipresent voice that criticized him not matter what; a voice that always told him he wasn't good enough: that he'd never be good enough.

Thinking back on it this was probably why he hadn't asked Hermione out earlier, that little voice told him she would never feel the same; that no one would ever like him: that no one would ever date him.

"It's just I never thought anyone would want to date me, let alone that you would" (Y/n) confided in her.

"I felt the same way (Y/n), most people do it's normal to have doubts like that, just know that I'm here for you" Hermione squeezed his hand "you can talk to me about anything (Y/n), you don't have to be nervous about it"

"Thanks Hermione" was all that (Y/n) could get out. He had never had a friend like Hermione before, before Hogwarts he hadn't really had any friends, except for his family. Never before had he been close enough to someone to tell them how he felt; to confide his vulnerabilities.

They continued on, looking into a few different stores, talking and laughing. Eventually she stopped again and pulled a small wrapped box out of her bag.

"I uh made this for you" She said going slightly red as she handed it to (Y/n).

He eagerly opened the box and pulled out a
(F/c) hand knit hat.

"Hermione! You didn't have to!" He said excitedly as he pulled it into his head. "I love it!"

Hermione seemed relieved at this. "I'm glad you do, I spent a while trying to get it perfect"

"Thank you so much 'Mione" He said hugging her.

They kept on walking for a while before they reached the shrieking shack.

"Remember when you lit Honeydukes on fire?" Hermione asked trying, and failing, to stifle her laughter.

"Course I do, I've still got a lifetime ban there" he said "I've never even been inside! Actually I've been working on something I want to show you"

Hermione looked confused but nodded somewhat cautiously. (Y/n) pulled out his wand and said "Incedium Bestia" and out of the tip of his wand sprang a raven made entirely out of fire.

"I've never seen that spell before" Hermione said amazed as she watched the raven fly around the shrieking shack.

"That's because I created it!" (Y/n) said proudly. "I got the idea from Fiendfyre, but I wanted to make a safer, less dark version of it" he explained to her.

"So I studied up on Fiendfyre and then I adjusted the spell quite a bit, I used a variety of other spells to adjust it, I used incendio as a base of course, I didn't want to use Fiendfyre as a base given how dark and uncontrollable it is, and then I also used a variety of transfiguration spells and the Patronus charm, you know so that it's more sentient and lifelike, I'm not entirely sure how similar it is to a Patronus I can only create a raven so it's the same as my Patronus but I'm not sure if this is the same for everyone as I haven't tested it with other people, also I don't know if it will affect Dementors or what not" this whole time (Y/n) had not taken a breath and was speaking as fast as he could.

"And then I also used the stunning spell as well, hopefully I was planning on this spell being able to stun others you know as like a safer alternative to burning people alive, you know a bit safer, but I've only ever used it on myself, and the stunning part hasn't quite worked yet, when he collided with me I just get a sort of warm tingly feeling and I get a bit light headed but no stunning yet" (Y/n) was talking extremely fast and excitedly.

"Hopefully I'll be able to get it to work soon, I want it to work as a sort of good version of Fiendfyre, perhaps even a counter to it but I'm still a long way off from completing the spell!" he finally stopped talking, and gasped for air.

"That's amazing (Y/n)! That's some really impressive magic!"

"I know I've been working on it all summer, and all this year, I haven't gotten as much time to work on it during the year as much as I'd like to." He explained, still talking excitedly.