Burned by the Love (Saud Series #1)

Simula

Simula

The sun’s heat touching my skin, the whisper of the wild wind, the waves crashing to the shore and the suns setting is more beautiful than before.

I don’t know how long I’ve been here. Ang naalala ko lang is hinihila ako ng mga tunog na kaakit-akit sa aking pandinig.

Marahil, ito na kase ang isa sa pinakamalayang hangin na aking hininga simula ng ako’y lumisan sa kaniyang piling.

Life is really short if you don’t know how to appreciate little things around you. Sabi nga nila the best life you can achieve is when you are about to start to have full of an appreciation around you.

Appreciation.

Nothing more, nothing less.

Life is full of mystery. I don’t know if my life could consider being one of those mystery lives in this world.

I almost give everything. My love, care, patience, and of course my life to someone.

Someone, na hindi ko akalain na this would be one of the main reason of my self-destruction.

I gave everything even if it means losing the self-importance and my self-worth above all.

“What did you do?” isang gigil na salita mula sa aking kaibigan na si Allison.

Patuloy ang pagtulo ng aking luha mula sa aking mga mata. Kanina pa ako iyak ng iyak dahil hindi ko alam kung gaano kasakit ang hinagpis and all of those pains that I am enduring right now.
“I told you for how many times,” pigil hininga nitong bulyaw sa akin.

I understand how angry she was to me.

Simula pa kasi ng gawin ko ang mga bagay na iyon ay tila wala na akong ginawa kung ang hindi ang bigyan siya ng sakit ng ulo.

She almost scream and blown me her angry mood everytime she saw me, or even heard a gossips na I almost doing this for him.

“I already told you couple of times na hindi iyon magseseryoso and for pete’s sake hinding-hindi ka nun papatulan. Kung pinatulan ka man nun, ay baka trip niya lang yun. Babaero yun, Iean. ”.  She added na ngayon ay ramdam ko ang sobra nitong frustration dahil napahawak na rin ito sa ulo nito na tila isang kalabit na lamang ay sasabog na dahil naabot na nito ang temperature nito sa pagsabog.

I know.

I gave him everything he wanted from me.

Attention, care, love, patience, understanding, blows, and even I gave him my whole self for him.
I even do it for him every night he really, really wanted. I almost throw myself to him.

Na hindi ko alam kung na-appreciate niya ba ang lahat ng iyon?

Maybe the laughs? The joy? Ang kinang sa mata nito everytime I saw his hooded and dark eyes?

Ganoon ba masasabingnaging worth it ang lahat?

Damn.

“Martinez ‘yun, Iean, hinding-hindi yun magseseryoso. Look at yourself, ipinapahamak mo lang ang iyong sarili.” She added as she sit beside me. Na tila siguradong sigurado sa mga sinambit nitong parting sa kay Arthur.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganoon na lamang ang galit at inis nito sa tuwing sinasambit niya ng sobrang gigil ang apilyedong ‘Martinez’.

I continued crying and wiping my tears with the handkerchief that I have.

“He doesn’t deserve you Iean, marami pang iba diyan. Look, we’re just 16 years old for the pete’s sake. We are too young for this; don’t waste yourself for that damn stupid boy.”