I guess it's Fate

Chapter 13

Jack POV

I know I was an asshole for leaving Liz but I have a good reason. I am so madly in love with her and she knows that yet she introduced me to everyone she knows as just a good friend. She wanted to talk about where we were going in our relationship but she never did, she always avoided it. I don't know how she feels, she isn't opening up to me so I made the decision to break off whatever we had. I gave her time to think and she didn't say anything to me so I was left in the dark with my feelings. No matter what I said to her a week ago at the party, I still cannot get Liz out of my head. About 3 hours ago I saw her walk out of her house so I looked away so I do not get trapped in her beautiful gaze. I was with one of my friends from primary school, Katherine, who I have stayed close with since we met in 3rd Grade. I called Katherine to talk about the whole Liz situation and ask for advice but it didn't help. I still had Liz in my mind, going over the fun we have had in the past and what we can have in the future.

I had to talk to Liz so I called her and told her that we need to talk. She agreed and we decided to meet at the park. The park is down the road from my house so I decide to walk. Once I get there, I see Liz sitting on a park bench all rugged up in her jacket since it's a cold day. I walk up to the bench and sit next to her. She looks up and I instantly melt when my eyes meet hers. "Hi", I say and she looks away with a frown. "Hi", she almost whispers. I have done this to her. I have turned the fun, energetic Liz into the sad, hurt Liz. "You wanted to talk", she says and I nod. As I am about to start talking, rain sprinkles down and there is a strong breeze. "Do you want to go to that cafe and talk", I say to Liz, pointing at a cafe located across the street from the park. She nods and stands from the bench. We walk to the cafe and find a table to sit at.

"Do you want something to eat or drink?", I ask Liz. "Something warm would be nice", she says, shivering. I call the waitress on duty over to our table and order two hot chocolates. The waitress nods and walks to the register to tell the barista our order. "You wanted to talk, so talk", Liz says to me. "Yeah", I say and rub my hands against legs, nervously. I wanted to talk to her but I have no idea what to say. I must be dazing away for too long because Liz speaks up. "Jack?", she says and I snap back to reality. "Sorry", I say and smile. "Look, Liz, I have told you that you how I feel so many times and you say nothing. You tell me you want to talk about us, about where this relationship is going but you avoid the conversation. I understand you have to take your time to decide how you feel but you can't leave me in the dark forever", I say. "I know. I'm so sorry", she says.
"You have never even told me if you like me. I am apparently just a friend. I know we are too young for love but what about like".

"Jack don't rush me. I'm a girl, we tend to take our time".

"That's bullshit".

"I'm not having this conversation with you".

"Liz, I love you and you cannot tell me that after all the time we spent together and the kisses, you do not love me because I know you do", I say to Liz and she looks away. I know she loves me but if she doesn't want to say anything then I'll leave. I imagine my life the a girl who is open about her feelings and doesn't leave me waiting, trying so hard to impress but it doesn't seem to work. I stand from the chair and walk out of the cafe. "Jack!", Liz yells from behind me but I don't turn around. "Jack!", she says again  and I turn in anger. "What?", I say. "Stop", she says to me. "Why?", I say, looking deep into her eyes. "Because I love you, you idiot", she says in tears.