I guess it's Fate

Chapter 22

Jack POV

I smile into the kiss and lean Liz back down on the bed, sliding my hands behind her back to unclasp her bra. I throw her bra off the bed and stare at her chest. Liz puts her hands across her chest and looks away. I gently pull her hands away and kiss her, rubbing my fingers on her hands. "Baby, you're beautiful", I say. This makes her smile and remove her hands completely. I kiss her again and trail down her neck, kissing her breasts sweetly. Liz starts to pant and arch her back as I wrap my lips around her breasts, sucking lightly. She pulls at my shirt and lifts it up over my head. I kiss her lips passionately while moving my hands up and down her thighs. I wrap my fingers at the hem of Liz's shorts and pull them down. I kiss her stomach while taking off her panties and place my lips gently on her folds. Her back lifts off the bed as she moans, burying her fingers in my hair.

Liz puts her hand under my chin and lifts my head away from her. "I want you now", she says and kisses me, hard. She undresses my bottom half and grab a condom from my wallet. I know I have never had sex before but my mates gave me a condom once as I joke and I forgot about it. Liz looks at me as I pull the condom from my wallet. "My mates gave it as a joke and I forgot about it in my wallet", I tell her. She raises her eyebrows and nods. After I put the condom on, I look at Liz. "Are you sure?", I ask and she nods in response. This moment is amazing and it feels great. Liz was in pain at first but it starts to be replaced by pleasure as she moans loudly. I cover her mouth and tell her to be quieter, even though I don't want her to. "My parents aren't home", Liz says and I nod, moving my hands back to grip her hips. "I love you", I say to Liz and kiss her. "I love you too", she says in my ear as I bury my head in her neck.

Liz and I lay in her bed, cuddled together. Liz breathes out and wraps her hands around my chest. "That was just how I thought it would be", she says. "It was amazing, baby", I say and kiss her forehead. "Our relationship has just gone to the next level", Liz says. That was pleasurable but also more than that. I have never felt so close to Liz than in that moment because she trusted me and I trusted her which made the experience so much better. As we are embracing each other's company, Liz's phone buzzes with her mum's name on the screen. She untangles herself from me and grabs her phone from her desk. "My mum is on her way", she tells me which makes me jump off the bed, hurriedly putting my clothes on. Once Liz and I are changed, we clean the bed and make it look like nothing happened in here but a general conversation. 

There is a knock at the door about 10 minutes after Liz's mum's text. Her mum pops her head into the room and smiles at us. "Hi honey. Hi Jack", she says to us and I wave, greeting her back. "What are you kids doing", she asks. "Just...talking about our future, mum", Liz says which earns a nod in response from her mum. Her mum leaves the room and we both sigh, grateful she didn't suspect anything else but a conversation. "Speaking of our future. Good one", I say to Liz. She laughs and leans on my chest, cuddling close. Her laughing dials down as she shifts uncomfortably on my chest. "What's wrong?", I ask her, concerned. "Jack... I need to speak to you about our future", Liz tells me, not making eye contact. "We go to college here so we are close to each other. We will then graduate and get married and live a life together, with children of course", I say with a big smile. Liz stands from the bed and sits at the chair at her desk. "Jack, I'm not going to college here", she says with a frown. "You'll get in, babe. Don't worry", I reasure her. 

"You don't understand what I'm saying", she says to me without making eye contact.

"I do understand".

"No you don't. Jack I love the way the future you described sounds but I'm not so sure it will happen".

"What?"

"I...I applied for colleges outside of San Fransico. The schools I applied for will benefit my learning for my career choice".

"Why didn't you talk to me about this", I say angrily. "It's not your business. I talked to my parents and came to a conclusion", she says back. She should have told me about her decision. I moved my life around so we go live the rest of our lives together and she has completely changed that. "It is my business. What happened to spending the rest of our lives together. You'll meet someone else at your new school and forget about me. That's our future going down the drain", I say. "Yeah, well, not everything goes as planned, Jack", Liz says to me.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Nothing, just that you shouldn't have high hopes for something that won't come true".

"I thought you wanted this future for us!"

"I do but I also have to think about myself! Jack, not everything goes the way you want. You are so caught up in the idea of happy ending that you forget about reality".

"I think of the happy shit so I'm not fucking hating life!".

"I understand that but saying stupid shit that is so far from the truth is ridiculous".

"Give me an example".

"It was fate for us to meet", Liz says quietly. Our eyes lock as she says that and I can see tears falling down her cheek. I talk a step towards her but still keep a good distance between us. "It was", I whisper so quietly I don't think Liz heard me. "No, it wasn't", she says, crying. Liz wipes away her tears but more still run down her face. "We bumped into each other and fell in love. It's fate", I tell her but she shakes her head. "Fate doesn't exist. It's a stupid made up thing", she says and leans against her desk, with her arms crossed. I know she doesn't believe in the whole fate thing but she should believe in us. We have has a conversation about our future before and it went fine. We both agreed to go to college here so we are always near each other as we fear of drifting apart. If Liz attends a different college, out of the city, she will meet someone else and replace me and I can't do anything about it because I'm far away. "We had this conversation before and you agreed with me", I tell Liz. "No, you agreed for me. I never once said that I was 100% certain of attending college in this city. I told you I wanted to keep my options open and see what college offered what I wanted. I found colleges like that but they happen to be out of this city. It isn't my fault, Jack, but a good boyfriend would understand that and support their girlfriend, hoping for the best", she says to me, her mouth dry after her speech. "Liz-", I start but she interrupts me, "No. Long distance isn't going to work if you don't trust me".

"I do trust you", I say. I know I think she'll fall in love with someone else but it's not her necessarily that I'm saying will make the first move. Some guys are pushy and clingy which Liz will have no choice but to hang with them, then see they are great guys and fall in love. I'll be left in the dark while she is off graduating college with the best degree alongside her new boyfriend. "I am not going to fall in love with anyone else. I am crazy in love with you", Liz says as she walks over to me sitting on the bed. She straddles my lap and kisses my lips gently. "I love you so much. I just want the best for us. You know I don't want to lose you", I say softly, looking away from Liz's gaze. She moves my head to face her and kisses me again. "I don't want to lose you either", she says and rests her forehead against mine. I kiss her passionately and wrap my hands around her waist. Liz wraps her hands around my neck and tangles them in my hair. "I love you", she pants and kisses me again before I can say anything back. This girl will literally be the death of me.