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sorry

"Jackie ,wait "

Andrew has been running after me since I Stormed out of the cafeteria .
He doesn't get it, does he ?

Am in no mood to talk to him.
I can't believe he let his friends gang up on me. He can't even defend me.

I am running too fast to the school field ,that's the only place I want to be right now.You never find alot of people there ,i just want to be alone.

He finally holds my hand when he catches up with me, resulting me to stop .

I am fighting back my tears .I don't want him to see how much am hurt right now.
Just the thoughts of my sister makes me cry.
The reason why I was here in the fast place was to Learn how move on.
Clearly I have been doing that but when I remember our birthday .
Then I can't do it anymore.
How am I supposed to celebrate my birthday without my twin.

Andrew swings me around to a position that am now facing him.

"Do you have a problem with Stacy " Andrew enquires.         
Clearly he isn't here to comfort me .

"What !" Am shocked ,is that what he had to stop me for .

"I think you have a problem with Stacy why would you snap at her....I have been watching you ..you don't seem to like her " Andrew speaks but this time he is getting more angry.

It's not my fault the bitch started on  the wrong foot with me.I am not over it yet.

"Is that all you have to say...it's so clear you are picking her side right now...Am not the one who was forcing your your girlfriend to talk about something she doesn't want to talk about. ..I don't celebrate my birthdays what else do you want?" I am just one second next to busting into tears.

He stays in silence as if realising he's mistake.The look on his face clearly shows it.

"If you don't have anything else to say ,let me go " I say as I try to loosen myself from his grasp.

Am about to go loose but he holds me back.He arms around my waist and my back towards him.
He is standing  behind me holding me tight .
Am already in tears but at this position he doesn't see it .
I try to loosen his arms so i can find my escape and run away but he is holding on to be so tight.

I decided to remain in that position and let my tears out .
Good thing he caught me in the field already .
There is barely anyone here.

"Baby am sorry " he whispers in my ears.

"Am sorry please don't cry"

"Please forgive me "

We stand their for a while as I cry in his arms.
I feel My chest is so heavy.The pain of loosing my sister burns me over and over again.

He turns me and am now facing him crying on his chest .
It's been a while since I cried in someone's arms.
He has his fingers in My hair stroking me like a baby.
After a while I dry My tears and try to stop crying.
He takes my hand and guides me to a bench that is a few steps away from where we are.
We both take a sit on the bench .

"Jackie am sorry. .please forgive me .I didn't mean to make you sad." Andrew pleeds his voice seeming sincere.

My eye liner must have been messed up by the crying.

"It's okay I forgive you, " I answer.
It's not his fault.  He didn't know my reasons.If only they didn't push harder we wouldn't be in this situation.
But if I were in his position maybe I might have reacted the same .So I choose to forgive him .I don't want to stay mad at him.