Hearts

High on sugar.

When we left Starbucks  we went to school.
Shawn proceeded to his class leaving me to find Andrew.
I found him and said hey then left for the library.

While at the library I couldn't study either .I had consumed alot to choocolate cookies that meant the amount of sugar running in my system was high.If there is something about me they haven't told you is that sugar gets me hyper.
So when I was in the library there was little to nothing I could do.sometimes I would put on my earphones and listen to music, Watch some funny videos from YouTube. The later would end up with a warning from the librarian.I was laughing too loud I might have forgotten the library sign that says maintain silence.

Anna was also there but I don't know what's wrong with her she seemed to concentrate on her books as for me I was pulling my hair and changing siting positions.

It's like we had swap bodies with Anna. On a normal day Anna would be the one having a hard time reading but yesterday I knew what it felt like to be in her position.
That  made me wish I was a witch .Maybe if I was a witch I would transfer everything she was reading to my brain.
Wow that's so brilliant.
All I would have done was lazy around and then all her efforts would be rewarded to me.

For a eighteen almost nineteen year  girl am such an idiot.

I agree.

Who asked for your opinion.

Are you arguing with me right now?  You are an idiot you know it ,I know it and everyone knows it.

Shut up ! No one asked you to speak.

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The rest of the week went on so fast.
It consisted  my daily routine of waking up getting dressed for school, having breakfast with family, taking a ride to school from either dad or Anna,meeting Andrew before class ,it maybe a ritual or tradition ,going to class after class, meeting up with the guys for  lunch ,go back to classes if they are any, then in the evening I'll either take a ride from Andrew or Anna ,go home have dinner with family watch Netflix then try to read my notes.

Note the word try to read.

Someone would say that I have such a boring routine but it's better than my last.

For me this is so involving including the fact that I have to face Anna ,Andrew, Stacy and don't forget Shawn.
When did I make so much friends I mean am quite anti-social despite the fact that I always kept a low profile unlike my sister.

At times like this it's really hard to stop myself from thinking about her.
It's around our birthday month .If she was here am sure she would have the best plan for a party.
She was the opposite of who I was .She was brave,outstanding, courageous ,daring you just name it .She would stand  up for what she believed,get into fights meaning full ones , loved to party, protect the nerds from being bullied. She was everything I was not .how can two people be so alike but so different. We were identical twins, made from the same cloth but still different.
That never stopped me from loving her she was this loving,caring and  overprotective big siz.

How am I supposed to move on from that .
Everyone keeps telling me not to dwell in the past and move on .Everything happens for a reason.
You tell me, is there a reason good in enough for me to loose a person like her?
They say it's time to move on you have a whole future awaiting for you.
But what future are they talking about.
I mean my sister and I had our whole future planned.
We were never going to separate but I guess am wrong she didn't keep her part of the promise.

Learning to let go isn't the hardest thing learning to start over is .

People like Joanna are really hard to forget.