That's it
Skipped a level
Just like the fight is over before it started and I'm still standing
This is nothing like playing through before
I wonder where all the remote tossing and hearing "Game over" went
I wonder where all the crying and trying went
I wonder where all my low self worth and rage- quitting went
I rage plan with you
I rage encourage you
I rage hug you
I rage against the system hurting you
without quitting
I rage against my tendency to rage too much
I desperately thumb up up down down left right center button
And suddenly
I'm floating in the uncertainty and hope and stress
But it is so much better than knowing that every day is a fight I have to keep repeating to only find a bigger fight next week
You are so much sweeter than the games of my past
YOU ARE READING
for now
Puisipoems for this time and to an incredibly beautiful girl. a reminder that people are mostly good. feelings are mostly good. life is good and life changes every day. Feelings protect you, and it's okay not to be okay.
