Forever And Always

Chapter 13

Two Weeks Later...

Edward P.O.V

It's been two weeks since I came back from Chicago and Bella hasn't shown any signs of getting anywhere near better. It's gotten to a point where Carlisle started giving her antidepressants and sending her with a therapist ever Wednesday. Dr. Maria says her depression is really gotten to the point where Bella has thoughts about not wanting to live anymore. That thought scares me and it makes me feel useless knowing that Bella won't speak to me.

When I'm with her, her crying stops, she just hugs me really tight and doesn't want to let go. Dr. Maria says it's the only way my Bella feels safe and with support. She wakes up at night, crying, looking for me if I'm not by her side. There are some occasions where she has attacks, starts crying, throwing whatever she finds, screaming that she wants Bruno back and just when she knows Carlisle is about to inject her medication to make her sleep she just hugs me and begs me not to let him inject her. Like today.

"JUST GIVE ME MY SON BACK!" She cried as Renee took her arm, crying.

"Baby, please calm down," she cries.

"I WANT MY SON BACK! YOU LIED TO ME! YOU SAID EVERYTHING WAS GOING TO BE OKAY! YOU LIED!" Bella pushed her.

I rush to her and grab her by the arms and pull her back. "Bella, please calm down!" I beg.

Bella starts screaming, kicking and saying that Renee was a liar. Renee watches her crying from Esme's arms, my mother can't hold her tears either.

"I got it." Carlisle comes in with the medication. "Hold her, Edward."

"NO! NO!" Bella screams hugging me tighter, hiding her face on my chest. "Edward, don't let him inject me! It hurts! I don't want to sleep! I want him back!"

"I'm sorry, Love," I said holding back my tears. I grab her by both arms and Alice helps me keeping her still, stretching her right arm.

"LET GO OF ME! LET GO OF ME!" She yelled.

Bella starts to scream, begging not to be inject. Carlisle injects her and I hold her against my chest until her whimpers stop and her breathing is slowly and steady.

"Let... Go," her voice slowly fades. "Let..." and then she's asleep.

"This is not okay," I whisper stroking her calm face. "It's too much medication, too much she's going through."

Carlisle shakes his head. "Dr. Maria says her depression is way beyond from what is expected after the death of your child. She said there's probably something else that's hunting her."

I sighed. "Bella won't say, I feel useless not being able to help her."

"You are doing the best you can, Son," Mom sobs holding Renee.

"Yeah, I mean after baby Bruno died you hold up pretty well, you have to stay strong for Bella. She needs you more than ever,"Alice said. "Don't give up on her."

"I'm not," I said looking at Bella. "I'm not giving up on you, Love."

That's a promise.

~~~~ Two Days Later ~~~~

"Bella, you have to eat," I said. Bella once again won't eat. "Bella, you're way too skinny. You can get sick."

"Edward?"

"Yes?"

Her fingers grip each other. "Why are you still with me? Why after I lost our son and right now I'm a total mess? I'm broken and worthless and you're still here, why? Why don't you go and-"

"No, Bella, listen to me," I snapped. "I'm not leaving you, why can't you understand? I'm here, I love you and I don't care you lost our son-"

"You don't care!" She cried.

"I didn't mean it that way, Isabella!" I snap, again.

"What way did you mean it! You're not the one who was there when he-!"

"Don't you think it hurts me, too! Don't you think I didn't cry that night my dad told me our son was gone! I'm trying to let go, Isabella, because that would be what Bruno would've wanted. Not laying back crying our entire life. Love, he wasn't ready."

Bella takes her hands and grips her hair. "You don't understand!" She cried.

Alice, Rosalie, Esme and Carlisle ran in the dinning table, looking at us amused.

"Isabella, what am I suppose to understand? I know, it hurts me too but we both have to learn how to live with it."

"Edward, you don't understand," Bella sobs.

I kneel beside her. "I'm trying, Bella, I'm trying really hard but I can't do this on my own."

I try to touch her but she cheek but she pushes my hand away and stands up. "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!" She yelled.

I stand up. "WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO UNDERSTAND?!" I shout back. "Bella, he's gone, you have to let him go-"

Suddenly she screamed, "EDWARD, HE DIDN'T DIE!"

Esme gasped behind me. I frowned at her and asked, "What?"

"I wanted to hold him, at least once," her voice cracks. "But... But I couldn't. I begged and begged... I didn't get to hold him once. Not once. He was crying and I wanted to hold him, but I couldn't..." She whimpers.

"What are you saying?" I asked, still in shock. My voice is a low whispers as hers.

"He took me to a house, my water was broken and it hurt so much. He warned me but I didn't... I didn't think he would do something so heartless. Then I had to push, and push and I thought I couldn't make but I did. He didn't, no he didn't cry but he did... I asked to hold him..."

"Bella, what are you saying?" Carlisle asked.

"Bruno didn't die, Edward," she said touching my chest.

"Bella..." I don't know if I believe her. She's way to broken, she might had gone mad...

"Believe me," she begged, "believe me. He's not dead."

"Then what happened!" I snap. "Bella, where is Bruno?!"

"Charlie took him!" She cried. "Charlie took our son and I couldn't stop him. I couldn't!"

She hugs me and starts crying, saying that Charlie was the one who took Bruno. I see Renee walk in and we all just look at her.

Author's Note:

Here you go guys, I finally got my phone back so I can update now. Yay!! Now, what do you think Edward will do now that he knows Bruno is alive? What will he do to Charlie?

January 15, 2015

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