Never Alone || Carchelle

Michelle

"CARLA!" I scream as she tumbles to the floor. I rush over to her and shake her "Carla? Come on Carla wake up!" I plea, as I frantically dial 999. I rush to put Carla in a recovery position, my training in First Aid suddenly kicking in and my heart freezes. There's a patch of fresh blood on the floor and there's more dripping steadily from her hand. I gently pick up her arm and look at her hand, expecting to see something causing it to bleed, but there's nothing. Not a scratch. Then I see blood seeping through the arm of her jumper and my heart sinks. Images of the bloodied razor at her flat flash through my mind as I gingerly peel back her sleeve. A quiet gasp falls from my lips, a blood red bandage covers her wrist and as I apply pressure to what I can only imagine are deep wounds beneath the once white bandage, there's a loud bang on the door. "Ambulance" a voice booms and I let out a shaky breath "It's unlocked" I cry back "Hurry please, she's bleeding". Footsteps, people surround me, take me away as they assess her. Stretcher, tourniquets, blood dripping then stopping. Beeping of machines, drips, IV access. Then sirens as we are rushed to hospital. 

Carla is taken from my side the second we arrive. I'm ushered to the waiting room, told to sit there while they access the damage done and my heart feels like it's about to break in two. I can't loose her. I need her. I NEED her! She makes my life complete...  I think as I stare at the clock, watching the hours tick by. Finally I am allowed to see her  "They're both fine. She might not wake up for a while though. The cuts and blood loss were serious. But they should both pull through" the nurse tells me as he starts to leave "They?" I ask and he stops "Your partner is pregnant" he says and leaves. I stand there, confused as can be, wondering how this could be if she'd had an abortion like she had told me she had... But she didn't tell you, you assumed she had  my brain reminds me and I bite back a sob as I sit in the chair beside Carla. I grasp her cold hand "Love... Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you say something? You can't go doing stupid things like this, I need you Carla. I need you" I whimper, brushing away the tears falling down my face "You're the only person in my life who I can talk to. Who I can trust 100% to be there for me no matter what. You've always known how to make me smile, how to cheer me up. You know how I feel before I even speak and we've got this amazing relationship that I love. I love what we have together Carla and you cannot just try and chuck it away like that. You're worth so much more than what Frank did to you. You're this amazing, strong, kind, fiesty woman. You're beautiful and caring. You light up a room when you come into it. I love you Carla. I think I always have but I've never known how to tell you. I know you love someone else and you can't hear a word of what I'm saying right now because you're asleep or knocked out on some pain killer or summin but just know that I will always be here for you. I won't let you down again. But please wake up, please don't leave me alone." I whisper, brushing the hair from her face... 

Hours pass and Carlas hand gradually warms up. She twitches and I gasp "Carla?" as her beautiful chocolate brown eyes flicker open. "Chelle?" she croaks and I let out a wet, tear filled laugh of relief "Don;t you ever do that again! Promise me Carla! I can't loose you again" I say and Carla nods "Sorry Chelle" she mutters. I squeeze her hand "I'm gonna look after you both from now on" I say and her eyes fill with tears "You know?" she wheezes and I smile at her "Yeah, I know. Why didn't you tell me? You know I wouldn't have been mad, it's your choice and I will respect that" I state firmly and Carla dips her head down, fiddling with the blanket "After what you told me about Rauri... I didn't want... It weren't the right time... I was gonna tell you Chelle, I were gonna tell you but just not now, I didn't want to hurt you more..." she cries and I slip onto the bed, pulling her into my arms "You wouldn't have love. You wouldn't have... I'm gonna be a kind of best friend aunty. That's the coolest thing ever and I mean that Carla. You're gonna be the best mum ever"...