Never Alone || Carchelle

Carla

Sorry for the slow updates, moved to London and have had no wifi and limited data! But enjoy nonetheless :) 

A week later...

I hesitate before gently knocking on Michelles hospital door. My heart's in my throat and my hand rests on my slightly protruding stomach. I so badly want to ask her to be with me today but I... I don't want to lose her again or hurt her... Michelle is sat on her bed, a photo in her hands and she glances up when I enter. "Carla" she grins and I flash her a small smile back. Chelle's face falls "Carla? Is everything alright?" she asks coming towards me "Can you..." I trail off as she reaches me and pulls me into a hug "Come sit" she says pulling me towards the bed and I do as she requests. We sit down and she grasps my hands "What's going on?" she asks looking at me gently and I don't quite know how to reply. Chelle rests her hand on mine and I wince as the baby kicks me sharply. I rub my stomach and leave my hand resting protectively on it. Chelle's hand soon joins mine and we sit there for a while, revelling in the new life growing beneath our hands. I sigh and grasp Chelle's hands in my own "It''smy20weekscantoday" I mumble, the words suddenly rushing out of my mouth in a jumble and Chelle snorts "you what?" I inhale slowly "It's my 20 week scan today and I'm scared Chelle..." I whisper and she looks at me, her eyes filled with understanding and envy "You'll both be just fine" she states gently and I squeeze her hand as she picks up the picture again . She places it in my hands and I look at it. It holds the image of a tiny baby, swaddled in a blanket, its head swamped by the much to big hat sitting on its head and my heart stops when I realise it's Rauri "Chelle" I breathe "He's beautiful" and she smiles, a sad smile that's full of pain and pride "He is isn't he? I know it's scary but what happened to me, is highly unlikely to happen to you darling. You'll be fine" and I hug her. "Thank you" I whisper and she looks at me, her eyes hiding something "Would you?" I ask and her eyes widen "Can I?" and I nod. She takes my hand as I stand up and walk towards the door "Where are you going?" she asks "To my appointment... you coming? You don't have to" I say and she smiles "I wouldn't miss it for the world" 

I lie on the bed, looking at the ceiling, Michelle's clutching my hand tightly and as the sonographer squeezes the gel on my stomach, I forget how to breathe. A heartbeat fills the room again and Chelle sniffs besides me "Carla look" She sighs and my eyes fall on the screen. My baby's 3d face is filling it and my heart explodes from the love held within it. "Wow" I murmur as my baby moves. "Do you want to know the sex?" the guy asks and I hesitate. I look over at Michelle, her eyes still glued to the screen and I know she wants to know "Yes please" I whisper hardly daring to believe this is true. "Well she is looking very healthy" and Chelles eyes fill with tears "It's a girl?" we both say softly and she laughs "I'm so happy for you love" she says and I grin "Do you both want a picture?" the sonographer asks and we both nod. He leaves me to get changed and I look over at Chelle, sat there, her eyes full of tears and love and hope.  "I love you" I say suddenly and she freezes, her eyes wide "Do you mean it?" she asks and I nod shyly "I love you too" she grins and kisses me gently and my world explodes. We exit the room and head back to Michelles room in the hospital, both clutching our images of my baby girl and Michelle lets out a peel of laughter "You're having a baby" She giggles and I smirk "We're having a baby... Will you move back in with me please?" I ask and she nods "If they'll let me out". We round the corner chatting and run into one of the mental health team, who's come in search of their missing patient "MICHELLE!" I exclaim "You always tell people where you are going love" and she giggles "But I came with you... you wouldn't hurt me... We're having a baby". The woman takes one look at the both of us and hands Michelle a form "Congratulations both of you. You're free to go Michelle" and I stop in my tracks "She's free to go?" I ask and the doctor nods "You've got people around you who are obviously supporting you and being in here won't aid your recovery any further. Sign here Michelle and then you and your partner can go back home and celebrate". Michelle does as she's told and we walk back, hand in hand to our flat. Michelle checks nobody's around before kneeling down in the slightly melted snow and kissing my coat covered stomach "I can't wait to meet you little one" she whispers and my heart joins the melted snow on the pavement as it's unable to cope with the cuteness and sheer perfection of my girlfriend. I hear footsteps and glance over to see Johnny, Kate and Aiden staring at us both "Chelle get up" I whisper and she does so just as the Connors all arrive "What was that?" Aiden asks and I glance at Michelle and she squeezes my hand "Tell them love" she says and I blurt out "I'm pregnant" and their questions come firing my way. I try to think of how to answer them without giving what actually happened away but thankfully Michelle steps in "Carla will explain and answer your questions when she is ready and had a bit more sleep than she's had now" she states gently as she unlocks our front door. Johnny catches my arm "Look after yourself yeah?" he awkwardly asks and I smile "I always do Johnny love" I turn to go "Oh and Carla?" I turn back to face my estranged father "Congrats. You'll be an amazing mum"