The Challenge: Total Madness

Victim of Love

We get back from Swaggy's elimination and I am honestly sadder than I thought I would be. We might not have seen eye to eye in this game, but he always looked out for me and made sure I never felt alone. He took over the older brother role once Jay left and for that, I owe him the courtesy of looking after Bayleigh. Bayleigh is not my biggest fan at the moment and I do not blame her for feeling that way. I abandoned her when the slightest bit of pushback came my way and I have an idea about how I want to make it up to her but I do not know how willing she will be to go along with my plan.

As we are recovering from witnessing Cory's win, I observe how everyone is reacting right now and it makes me feel better about my chances. Nany and Melissa are so hungry for that Red Skull and very open about it, but Bayleigh is sulking in sadness over losing Swaggy and I hate seeing her feel that way, especially when I had a hand in how it went down. I find Cory looking at pictures of Ryder and I plop down on the bed next to him, hugging him from behind. We have developed a brotherly connection and I have enjoyed our relationship.

Syn: Cordaddy! Congrats on getting your Red Skull!

Cory: Thanks Synny!

Syn: Cory, I hate you calling me that.

Cory: I know. That's why I love calling you that.

Syn: If it makes you happy, then I'll allow it. How is my resident teddy bear feeling after the win?

Cory: Oddly calm. I miss Ryder like crazy and I hate that she is mad at me, but I wish she could understand why I am doing this.

Syn: I have a feeling she will one day. Chey is a really good mom and so is Taylor. She will always be your little princess, but right now, she needs her Prince Charming to do his job and get to the final.

Cory: I am going to win the final for her.

Syn: As much as I want that for you, you have to go through me first.

Cory: That's easy.

Syn: Rude! I am going by Jenny where I feel loved.

Cory: Wait! I'm just kidding!

Syn: I know. I seriously have to leave. I need to talk to Bayleigh and make sure she knows that she is not alone.

Cory: This is why you will never be a villain. It would hurt you to be mean to someone who hurt you.

Syn: Yeah. Yeah. Bye Cor.

Cory: Have fun Brett.

Syn: I will.

I leave the room and see Bayleigh has not moved from her spot at the dining table. I sit down next to her and tap her shoulder. She looks at me and then turns away.

Syn: Bayleigh, look. I'm...

Bayleigh: You're what? Sorry that you ditched the two people who cared about you the most? Who were two of the only people from Big Brother that believed you in the Jesse situation? You don't deserve my forgiveness.

Syn: I know I don't. I came over here to talk.

Bayleigh: Why? To make me feel alone?

Syn: No. I came here to tell you that if you need someone to talk to, I am here. I might have gone astray, but I never stopped caring. I get that you feel like your heart and soul are no longer here. I feel like that every damn time I come out here or do another reality competition show.

Bayleigh: You miss Christian, don't you?

Syn: Like crazy! Ever since we have met, we have not gone one day without being in the same room as each other or talking to each other. I know it sounds bad to depend on someone you met 5 months ago, but he is my everything! I would kill to be able to wake up in the bunker with my man everyday, but I cannot do that. Because of our lives, we won't be able to do that for a while.