Bully//Chase Hudson

Chase

hey,

I feel really bad that I stopped writing so imma just keep going but the updates will be slow and stuff also, thank you to the person who was checking up on me🥺 my messages don't work i'm really sorry <3

I laid in bed that night a practiced my apology for Aspen.

I broke up with Gabby earlier today and basically cut Anthony, Payton and all them off, I don't want to be the bully anymore.

I don't want to make her life hell anymore.

I stare at my ceiling with my eyes closed and imagine the interaction when I apologize:

"Hey Aspen" I would say

Then she'd reply with something witty or just tell me to leave her alone

"I wanted to apologize for everything that i've done, I was stupid and it's never going to happen again. I was blinded by the popularity but I know that's not a excuse and i'm not trying to give you an excuse. I know what I did was horrible and wrong so i'm trying to change. i'm sorry"

That would be my apology.

but she wouldn't except it right away, which is totally understandable.

I run my hand through my hair and sigh.

I think back to her first day at school, when I sat with her for a few minutes...my breath was taken away and I didn't have any words.

she was gorgeous, and now that i know her a bit better I realize that she's smart, kind, independent, strong and Resilient.

She's an amazing person...I just couldn't see it yet.

I can't wait any longer.

I need to text her

12:48am

Me: Hey Aspen
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Aspen E: *typing...*

Aspen E: what

Me: Gabby and I broke up
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Aspen E: nice?

12:49am

Me: Aspen i'm really sorry about everything
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12:50am

Aspen E: *typing...*

12:59am

Me: Aspen?
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1:06 am

Me: why are you leaving me on read?
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Me: if you don't want to talk to me it's fine but just know i'm sorry okay? and I want to talk to you at school tomorrow
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I put my phone on my bedside table and run my hands around my face.

God chase you messed up.

I roll over and close my eyes, I slowly drift off to sleep but after a while i'm awoken by a small noise. then another.

I grab my phone and look at my notifications.

Snapchat from: Aspen E
Snapchat from: Avani

I open them quickly.

2:19 am

Aspen E: yeah

Me: yeah what?
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Aspen: yeah let's talk tomorrow

Me: okay
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2:20am

Aspen E: why are you up so late?

Me: why are YOU up so late?
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Aspen: whatever doufas see you tmrw

Me: yeah
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I decide not to open Avani's snap, it's probably just streaks anyway.

I don't know what teenagers send streaks still but it's whatever.

I can't sleep. It's 3:41am and I can't sleep.

3:41am

Me: I can't sleep
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Aspen E: same

Me: ik you hate me but do you wanna go to the skate park
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Aspen E: this isn't just one of your tricks?

Me: nah i'm done with that stuff
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Me: promise
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Aspen E: promise?

Me: promise
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Aspen E: meet you there in 10

wow. we're actually meeting up.