Being a Mate: Rejected or Ignored (Part 1)

Another Attempt and Felicia

I slowly slipped into a depression. One that had me cutting myself. I started abusing drugs. My mind was constantly replaying the rejection of my mate. Me and Sylvia became closer though as she and Silver were the only ones I would allow around myself. Sylvia introduced me to her wolf friend Felicia. She was shorter than me and had amazing green eyes, and curly brown hair. Felicia showed her intentions when she kissed me. Her lips were soft and I lost myself in the warmth that she offered. I wanted so badly to feel. Lust was all I felt. I did try to rescue my mate again. We headed to Arizona for this excursion and I had stronger people with me. Ones who wouldn't look at me with pity. I deserved nothing like that as I took charge. I trembled a little bit as his scent washed over me. I felt myself being lost to the scent of him. He turned and looked at me, as if seeing me for the first time. I looked over my sunglasses with a smirk, then I shyly smiled my heart being renewed, my determination unfaltering. He shyly smiled back at me and I saw the flicker in his eyes. If anything he lusted for me, which for me, was a great start. I went to shake his hand and I felt the tingles wash over my hand, he looked confused and looked back at his hand to me. He felt it, my heart sang. I saw Mr. Mobius beam proudly at us. I gave him a slight nod letting him know that we were in position. They moved forward in the line and my mate looked at his dad and that is when it got weird. It seems as though Mr. Mobius gave him the map on a napkin. My mate excuses himself to the restroom. That was my cue. I left the line and approached my new team. We waited by the exit we were instructed to be by to extract my mate. Time ticked on, and I got nervous, wondering if that bitch of a mother got to him. I paced back and forth my growls rumbling from my chest as I grew more agitated. "Sky, take Sylvia and Felicia, go see where he is!" I yelled causing the patrons to look at me like I lost my mind. "Asara? He is back with his family looking dazed and Mr. Mobius is upset." I growled through the link. They took that as a sign to get back to me. I saw Felicia and she was shaking in fear thinking I was going to hurt them like her alpha does when they fail. I grabbed her roughly and she bowed her head tears clouding her eyes. I kissed her with all the raw emotions I had. I bruised her mouth with mine as I roamed my hands over her. I took Felicia with me as we went to the hotel for the night. I carried her to the bed. I knew she wasn't a virgin but I still was so I slowed myself. I kissed her as I stripped her clothes off. I basked in the sight of her pale skin and rounded breasts. I looked down between her legs at the dark curls that hid her sex from me. My eyes went back up to hers and I saw the same lust that shined in my eyes shine in hers. I kissed her and she tangled her hands in my hair. My hands explored her as I made my way to her slick sex. I found her sensitive nub and rubbed it until she stopped kissing me and was gasping for air. Her nails clawed my shoulders as I slid one finger inside of her. She shuddered as I found her g-spot and ran my finger over it, over and over again. I felt her tighten around my finger as she cried out. She laid back panting and her breast heaved and glistened with passion. She kissed me and climbed on top of me, excited to give me pleasure. I stopped her for a second letting her know I was a virgin. She laughed softly and assured me she wouldn't take that. She kissed down my neck, and undid my clothes, freeing my tan skin to be exposed to her. She suckled at my nipples while rubbing my nub gently. I gasped never feeling this way before. My back arched off the bed as I climbed closer to release. Heat spread through me and sweat formed on my naked body. I felt like every emotion I felt was multiplied. A vision popped up in my head. I no longer was being touched and caressed by the curly haired beauty. I was being touched by my mate. I imagined his hair falling on my skin making me shiver. I thought of his lips sucking on my breasts. His fingers making me feel this. I released, seeing him in my haze. I was breathing hard when my vision cleared. I saw Felicia grinning as she leaned over me to kiss me. I let her snuggle me and fall asleep, while I was hating myself for cheating on my mate. I sighed, maybe he wouldn't be too mad since it was thoughts of him that made me orgasm. I smiled and snuggled up next to my wolf lover and slept tomorrow I was going home.