reminiscence

whatever it was

now i realize,
that all those times you texted me far too late 
not yelling at me, 
knowing that whatever it was was taking over 
when you looked at me, 
without the anger
{because i've seen it before,
and none of them bothered,
because as much as they love to say, 
they knew, they cared, 
they really didn't.}
 i wondered how you were still there. 

you did it all 
to make sure 
i never felt lonely
or felt whatever it was
 again.