reminiscence

waiting by the playground

a/n: thought i'd write a sort of folklore,
this isn't my story but smth my friend went thru.
hope you enjoy <3 

stood by the playground,
third graders laughing around,
to be honest, i don't really like one of my best friends,
but i'm supposed to, so for now i'll ignore it,
and i sit by the curb,
i was waiting-
oh, i was waiting for you to arrive.

it's been a few years now,
and in all frankness, i'm still waiting,
what can i say?
there are no words to explain-
you were the epitome of 
everything i wanted my future boyfriend to be.
why did you have to leave?
best friend that i don't like
didn't give me your cousin's number,
but i swear to god, i really tried.
she said it was on her old phone,
but i didn't really believe her,
don't leave me.
no contact, no last name,
all i remember was that it started with A.
where did you move to?
i'm starting to wonder,
it's in california right?
because i don't know how long i can wait for you,
maybe you moved,
somewhere across the world-
don't know what i would do. 

i wrote a note to you once when we were little,
it said that i liked you so very much, 
but i crumpled up the letter and threw it out,
i walked by your house once, 
had no idea why, 
told my mom it was just a friend,
but you and i both know that it wasn't. 

your mysterious, yet so familiar essence
haunts me everyday,
saved the bracelet you helped me wear,
it's rusting now, but that's okay,
i long for more arm wrestles-
i still think you let me win every game,
and i know i said it before,
 but i still think about you.
you were a part of my life that was 
happy and we all lived in clouds,
you were a part of my childhood-
my childhood was left unscarred,
didn't miss you when you left,
but i miss you now. 
and i promise i'm still waiting by the playground. 

- J.A. and shelly