Once Upon A Benkro

What's Wrong?

I laid in the bed staring up at the ceiling still trying to figure out what happened to my dad. Everything pointed at Damiar killing him but it didn't feel right-

I heard a thump from outside the room. "Owww." Someone groaned.

I got up and quietly opened the door to see Damiar getting up, he must have tripped. He seemed panicked and off.

"You alright?" I asked him, walking over.

"Yeah, go back to bed." He responded and kept walking.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, why?" He looked at me confused and stopped walking.

"Y- you just seem off. I dunno- nevermind." I sighed and glanced down at the floor, I felt dumb for asking. Now he seemed fine.

"It was just a bad dream but I'm okay." He told me and I looked back up.

"Go to bed please." He asked of me then turned to walk away.

I watched him, thinking about the kiss from earlier. He was acting like nothing happened and why did he do it?

He turned back around as he got to the stairs. "What?" He asked as I looked away.

"Nothing, goodnight."

"Goodnight."

I went back to my room and laid back down. I finally fell asleep after that.

Kai woke me up earlier because he was bored and had nothing to do.We just talked about random stuff, I wanted to talk to someone about what happened last night but I couldn't tell Kai, he seemed like he was finally getting over Damiar.

Two-ish hours later Damiar came to tell us the food was ready. This time Kai just went downstairs with me, not caring Damiar would be there. It made me smile but I just felt kinda guilty also.

Damiar had made breakfast tacos, the food was amazing as usual. Everytime I looked up it seemed like Damiar and Kai were both just staring at me. Did I do something? Was there something on my face? I dont know but it made me uncomfortable.

We all finished and I got everyone's plates and went to clean them.

When I looked back at them, they were both staring at me still. "I'm gonna-" I began then I was cut off by Kai. "Uh Yn can I talk to you?" Kai asked me and I nodded then we went upstairs together.

"Yn we're good friends and you've helped me a lot and uh.. I..like you yn." He told me, my breath hitched.

What was I supposed to say? I never even thought Kai might of like me that way at all.

"Kai uHm..I- I don't like you in that way..but I like being friends with you a lot." I told him awkwardly, fidgeting with my hoodie strings.

"Oh- I- I'm sorry yn I'll just go." He said and quickly went to his room.

"Wait Kai," I tried to open the door but he locked it. "Kai I-" I didn't really know what to tell him I just leaned against the door for a minute.

"I hope we can still be friends." I said through the door then left to give him some space.

I went to my room and just curled up in a ball on the window seal. Everything felt like so much and I didn't know what to do, I could barely process it all but now it felt like everything hit me and I started breaking down.

I rested my head in my arms as I felt my face get hot. Before I knew it tears were running down my face one after another. I felt helpless.

My dad was gone, I was kidnapped, I probably just ruined mine and Kai's friendship, I'm stuck with Damiar who's a bipolar jerk, and there were people probably out to kill me next.

I tried to stay quiet but I couldn't, it hurt so much and I couldn't handle it. My breathing started getting shaky and ragged and I couldn't keep it together.

Nothing feels real. I can't believe this is my life now. I never wanted any of this.

I cried and let it all out for almost an hour before Damiar came in the room, I hadn't even realized he'd come in at first.

"Hey hey what's wrong?" He asked me  softly, coming closer.

"Nothing, go away." I sniffed and lifted my head up, trying to wipe the tears off my face.

"You're not just crying for no reason, c'mon just tell me what's wrong." He asked again, seeming genuine.

Damiar leaned against the wall, slightly behind me. "It doesn't matter I'm fine." I told him shakily.

"You're clearly not, was it something Kai said?"

"It's everything. Every Damiar, my dad's dead, I don't know what happened to him, you kidnapped me and there's apparently people after me.." I started crying again, I tried to stop but the tears just kept coming.

I left out the part about Kai, I was just gonna keep it between us.

"I know it's probably a lot for you to have to deal with..but what I'm doing is just to keep you safe I promise."

"Yeah I know you've said it a thousand times." I said a little harshly, i didn't mean to come off rude.

He didn't say any for a second, "I just don't want you to think I wanna do anything bad to you. I don't." He told me and it went quiet again, just my sobs filling the silence.

"I'm sorry, for being so annoying. I know." I cried

"Come here," He said softly then gently pulled in my arms and I stood up.

He hugged me tightly, swinging me a little. "It's okay." He comforted me as I hugged back and buried my face in his chest.

"No it's not." I shook my head, how was any of this okay?

"As long as you and Kai stay with me for a while it'll be ok. There's just stuff I gotta work out first."

"But my dad.."

"I know, it sucks. There's nothing you could've done though and there's nothing that'll change it now.."

He continued to give me advice and comfort me until there wasn't much else that was wrong, just the thing with Kai.

"Thanks." I sniffled, we were still hugging. "It's the least I could do."

I leaned my head against his chest and just stared at the wall. "Come on, I wanna take you somewhere." Damiar told me, letting go but keeping my hand in his as he lead me out the room.

"Where?" I asked, taking a glance at Kai's room which was still closed.

"I know a place."