Begin Again

Chapter Ten

*A Few Days Later*

Ed's POV

"Ed, I have something to tell you." Taylor said as she walked over to me.

"Go on."

"The...the more I remember about you...the more I don't like. I'm sorry, but we're not gonna work out." She told me bluntly. She pulled our engagement ring off her finger and tossed it carelessly across the room. "Goodbye, Ed." She turned and began walking towards the door.

"Taylor!" Tears were brimming in my eyes. "Taylor, please, we can talk this out, right? What is it you don't like? I'll change, Taylor, for you, I'd do anything." I pleaded, but she barely even threw me a backwards glance. "I love you."

"Well, I used to love you too, Ed, but I don't anymore. Sorry." She slammed the door shut loudly behind her as she left.

My eyes flew open and I gasped for breath. The bright sunlight spilling into the room told me it was morning, and I rolled over to find Taylor was not in bed next to me.

Even though I knew it was just a dream, I jumped up from my bed and ran down the stairs. "Taylor?" I called just as I walked into the living room and caught sight of her in the kitchen. "Taylor." Her name escaped my lips with a breath of relief.

I dashed over and pulled her into a hug from behind. "Taylor, I love you, I love you, I love you." I murmured, holding onto her tightly.

She was a little taken aback, but she quickly fell back into me. "I love you too, Ed. Is everything alright?"

"Yeah, just a bad dream, that's all...you were leaving me, saying that you were remembering more and more about me and you didn't like it, didn't like me, and you just...left." I bit my lip as I pulled her closer into me. "I love you, Taylor, a whole lot."

She smiled. "You know I'm never going anywhere, right? I'm always here, Ed. I love you."

"I love you too, beautiful girl." I placed a kiss on her cheek, and she twisted around in my arms to press her soft lips to mine. She reached her left hand up and placed it lovingly against my cheek, and that's when I felt it: something small and cool, barely noticeable, was around one of her fingers. When we pulled away, I looked down to her left hand to see what it was.

"You're wearing our engagement ring!" I noticed, taking her left hand in mine and looking at it. I was so excited by this, because it was like her saying, without actually saying, that she still wants to marry me.

Taylor nodded excitedly. "I was thinking about it this morning, when I saw it laying there on my nightstand, I was thinking about how we're obviously going to get married, and I love thinking about it now, knowing you, and loving you...I figured that even if I don't remember you proposing to me, it obviously happened, and I would love to marry you, and I'm engaged to you either way, even if for some crazy, stupid, pathetic, mindless reason I didn't want to be, so I decided I would start wearing it. I love it, and I love you, Ed." She explained, and I grinned before pulling her into another kiss.

"I love that, Taylor, thank you so much for wearing it, that....calmed me down, relaxed me, I guess, I've been worried that exactly what just happened in my nightmare might happen in real life, that you would change your mind about me, but...you wearing our engagement ring...when you don't even remember me proposing to you...thank you, Taylor, I love you so much." I pulled her into my chest.

"You know, since I don't remember you actually proposing to me, you could...in a sense, do it again, right here, right now, so I do have a proposal of some sort to think of. If you wanted, of course, you totally don't have to." She suggested shyly, looking at her feet.

"Awe, Tay, of course." I placed a kiss on her cheek before carefully slipping off the engagement ring from her finger.

I imagined the scene just like it had been almost a year ago: Taylor and I were hosting an iHeart Radio summer festival, and at the very end of the whole thing, right before we were supposed to sign off, that was when I proposed to her. I had been planning on it all night, and all the producers of the show and everything also knew it was coming, so they had allotted an extra five minutes at the very end just for us. Scott, Andrea, and Austin all knew as well, and as much as they reassured me that Taylor would say yes, I was still nervous as hell. When the finale of the show came, and it was my turn to propose, I hadn't ever been more nervous than I was right then. But I still got down on one knee, and of course, she said yes.

"Taylor Alison Swift," I began, taking both her hands in mine, "I love you more than I have ever loved any one human being. I would do anything for you, I would crawl on my hands and knees across broken glass all the way to the edges of the earth if you needed me to, I will do anything and everything in my power to make sure you are as happy and content as possible. I know that I feel this way so strongly, that I need to know whether or not you would want to spend the rest of your life with me, because I know I very well feel like I need to spend it with you. I know I want to someday walk you down the aisle, I want to someday have kids with you, and then be able to see those kids grow up, and watch our grandchildren grow up, but there's only way I could ever know if you feel the same, and that's by asking you this question," she grinned and had a few tears in her eyes as I continued, "Taylor Alison Swift, would you make me the happiest, luckiest man in the universe, and marry me?" I asked.

"Yes! Oh my god, Ed...yes!" I slipped the ring back onto her finger and pulled her into a kiss, my arms snaking around her waist and holding her tight. She was crying, hard, now, which had me a little surprised. I know we were both crying like idiots when I actually proposed, but I don't know why she would cry so hard right now.

"Is everything alright, love? Why're you crying?" I asked carefully when we pulled away, still clutching her to my chest. A grin spread wide across her face.

"I just...I never knew I meant that much to someone, Ed, I...I never knew you loved me more than anyone else on the planet, or that you really would do anything for me, or that my happiness is so so important to you, I...thank you, I love you, so so much." She laid her head down on my shoulder as she continued to cling onto me, and I smiled.

"Of course I do, darling, I honestly mean all those things I just said with every last ounce of my being, you are so important to me, and there isn't a day in my life that you won't be, there isn't a day that exists in my future where I will wake up and I won't wonder how you are, and hope so strongly that you are alright. I love you, Taylor, and there isn't a thing in this world that could ever change that, ever ever ever." I promised her.

Neither of us said anything for awhile, we just stood holding each other. Her head rested carefully on my shoulder, and our arms were both around each other's waists so tight you would've thought our lives depend on it. Probably because the one being that my life revolved around was in my arms, depending on me to keep her safe.

A/N: sorry, this chapter is sort of a filler. It gets better though! Thanks so much for reading! :)