Begin Again

Chapter Thirteen

*A Few Weeks Later*

Taylor's POV

"Hey Taylor! Come here, I wanna show you something." Ed's voice sounded from downstairs.

"Okay! I'll be right there!" I exclaimed, and set down what I was working on on the bed, before getting up and crossing the room.

As I made my way downstairs and Ed came into view, something clicked inside my mind. As I got closer to him, the more overwhelming this...feeling...became. I stopped walking and shut my eyes, immediately seeing a whole scene fold out in front of me.

I saw the iHeartRadio logo, and it felt like I was on a stage. I saw Ed was standing next to me, and I felt thousands of eyes trained on me. I saw him take my hand in his, say a few things (that seemed to be really sweet because of how much I was smiling), and then pull a box out of his pocket and get down on one knee.

My eyes flew open. "YES!" I screamed out, and I started crying, tossing my head in my hands. Ed ran over and threw his arms around me, hold me close.

"Taylor, what's wrong? Are you alright? What happened?" He sounded worried.

"I...when I came downstairs, I saw you there and you like triggered something in my mind, and I...I remember the day you proposed to me!" I exclaimed, holding him even tighter. "We were at an iHeartRadio festival, and we were gonna close out the show, but you stopped and you said 'hold on before we go, there's something I'd really like to ask Taylor here,' and then you just turned to me and told me about how much you love me and how you had no idea how you could go on any longer without knowing, because you wanted so bad to spend the rest of your life with me. And then you...you got down on one knee!" I buried my head into his chest and held onto him as tightly as possible, sobbing.

Ed sounded like he was crying too. "Taylor...Taylor, oh my god, that's...that's amazing! Do...do you still want to marry me?" He asked nervously, and I grinned. I leaned back a little to meet his gaze, and he looked like he genuinely had no idea.

"Ed, of course I still want to marry you! I would love nothing more in the world than to be your wife, I...," I brushed my hand across his cheek, and saw the tears brimming in his eyes as he bit his lip in an adorable smile, "Ed, I'm going to marry you, and there will be nothing stopping me from doing so. I'm going to be your wife, you're going to be my husband, I'm going to change my last name to yours and there isn't going to be a thing stopping me. I love you so much, I..." Tears started streaming down my cheeks again.

I pulled his lips to mine, holding him in the most passionate kiss I think I may have ever experienced. My fingers slipped through his auburn hair as his were positioned at my waist, holding me as tight as possible.

"I love you so much, Taylor, I...you remembered! You really remembered!" He exclaimed when we pulled away, so happy and incredulous all at the same time. Ed quickly yanked me back into a hug, pressing me as tight to him as possible, while I sobbed into his chest, not seeming to have any intentions of ever letting me go. "Taylor, I...I'm so happy you remembered, that you still want to marry me, you're so close to remembering everything, love, I...oh my god, Taylor, I've never loved anyone as much as I love you, and I hope you know that," he murmured, and placed kisses all across the top of my head, still squeezing me incredibly tight.

"I...I love you too!" It was almost hard for me to talk I was crying so hard. "Ed I love you so much, and I love you even more, now that I know I'm gonna be lucky enough to spend the rest of my life with you, I...all of it was worth it, all the confusion and the times I was scared and felt lonely and afraid, it was all so worth it, you were so worth all of it, I...I love you so much, Ed." My arms were around his waist as tight as I could get, and I was full-on bawling into his t-shirt as his hands moved up and down my back.

"You're alright, love, shh...," he tried to calm me down, but I was pretty much inconsolable, I was so happy, "why're you crying so hard, love? Did I do anything to upset you? I....I've never seen you cry this hard over being excited about something." He sounded a little worried.

I shook my head, hard. "You didn't upset me, Ed, I...I've never been this happy before in my life. I always had a fear in the back of my mind that I wouldn't ever remember everything, that I wouldn't remember all the great things you've told me about that happened between us. Added to the fact that basically since the morning I woke up in the hospital, I've been dying to remember you proposing to me, I've wanted so badly to know what it was like, how I felt about it. And now I know! I know, Ed, I know that it was the most perfect proposal ever and that I couldn't have been more happy if I tried. I...standing right here, in your arms, knowing that the person who is holding onto me is going be my husband, that makes me feel so...amazing. Ed, I love you so much." He chuckled a little, and kissed the top of my head.

"That makes me so happy, you have no idea. I love you so much Taylor, and I promise, I won't let anything get in the way of us being married this time, I won't let anything happen to you, I can't, I absolutely can't," he swore, holding onto me so tight.

"You know I don't blame you for that, right? Whatever it was that happened, it's not your fault, you couldn't have known that some random idiot would smash into our car, or that I had already unbuckled my seat belt." I laid my head down on his shoulder as his hands continued to rub my back and squish me into him. "I just can't wait to marry you, Ed."

"Neither can I, darling, neither can I." He pressed a soft kiss to my cheek, and for the first time in a long time, I felt myself completely relax, and not worry about a singular thing.