Undiscovered

40.

Niall's POV

It's been an hour since I've text Emilee and I've still had no reply. I've had no reply from Lilie either, I can't figure out if they're both ignoring me or just busy. I just need an answer from one of them. I can't seem to cope with this break up, it's not fair. It's just not fair how my relationship has ended because of a stupid, bitchy group of girls.

I haven't done a lot since the break up, I've hardly eaten, hardly got up out of bed, been missing lessons in school but I just can't face school right now. I can't face seeing the smug little faces of those bitches, them knowing they're winning because Lilie and I are miserable.

I can't stop thinking about everything that's happened in the past few weeks, I'm driving myself insane. I try and go walking to clear my mind but every time I leave the house my feet take me back to the same spot, to the bench in the park where Lilie and I had our first date. Every time. My mind is torturing me even more than I'm torturing myself.

This surely can't last for much longer? I really want to see Lilie, to try and sort everything out. All I can think about is all the memories we had, all the laughs, the arguments, the good times and bad, they're just floating around in my head and wont leave. Not that I want them to leave but they're not going anywhere, they're being stubborn.

Obviously, Lilie and I had a lot more good memories than bad but the bad have been standing out a lot recently and I don't want them too. We only ever used to argue over how much shit she used to put up with from the girls in school, or if she was under stress at home because Emilee was ill and she was falling behind on work. They were petty little arguments which we both knew meant nothing, we just needed a bit of space to come around and apologise and we would be back to normal and fine.

I tried so hard to keep a positive mind while being around Lilie, she had enough going on in her life without me burdening her with more shit. My stuff would never be as important as the stuff in Lilie's life. She used to get annoyed at me for not telling her stuff going on in my life, saying that my life was just as important as hers no matter how much was going on.

Yes, she was right but I could never bring myself to unload anything on to her, I didn't want her to worry, I could deal with it on my own, I wanted her as happy as she could possibly be and if that meant me shutting my mouth for a while then so be it.

I'm still just sitting here not knowing what to do with myself, I keep reliving that night. Those girls are plain evil, I must have looked like a ghost by the time I had gotten to Lilie's. I shake the thoughts from my head before I get myself in a bad state again. I just want someone to reply to me, Lilie, Emilee... anyone. At this rate I will end up trying to ring Harry just to make sure everyone is okay.

My phone buzzes and I scramble to reach for it, Emilee.

*Hey Niall, sorry I've taken so long to reply... Been speaking to Lil and heard everything that's gone on, please don't try to worry too much. She's missing you like mad but don't let her know I told you that. She's hurting bad and I've told her to try and chill out today and I'll sort some stuff out. You do the same, try to take your mind off things and I'll speak to her later and maybe get her to ring/text you? Take it easy, Em. :)*

Finally, someone has actually replied to me. I reread the paragraph from Emilee over and over before I can even come up with a response in my mind.

*Thank you so much for replying Em. As long as someone has spoken to her and she is safe that's a little sigh of relief for me. I hate knowing she is hurting, I miss her so bad it's unreal, I just want to see her but if she needs some space for a day or two I will wait for her. Something needs to be done about those girls, they're driving me crazy and I can't lose Lil over something like this, I won't let it happen, I love and care about Lilie way too much to let that happen. Thank you again Em :)*

I'm so emotionally drained from these past couple of weeks I can't bring myself to keep my eyes open, I finally have a small sigh of relief that Lilie is okay and as I start to think of all the good memories Lilie and I had, my eyes start to shut.

Lilie's POV

I feel so much better after speaking to Emilee, but I still have this weight of regret and guilt on my chest about Niall. He has text and rung me a couple of times but I can't bring myself to reply to him, no matter how much I'm hurting and missing him, I can't do it. I love him so much that I'm in so much pain thinking about what those evil girls have done to my boyfriend. Well, ex.

I will wait forever and a day to be back with Niall, I just don't want anyone else to be involved in our relationship, that's when things just get slightly complicated. These girls will get what they deserve, whether it's from Niall and I or whether it's from Karma herself, they'll get what's coming for them, no one does something like this to someone I love and gets away with it, no way.

I grab my phone for the last time today and read over the texts that Niall has sent me the past couple of days, I cannot and do not have the energy to write him a paragraph, and that's not what he needs off me right now. A simple text will do.

*Niall, I want you to know I love you and always will, okay? We will get through this. I love you. xx*

I just need a boiling hot bath, a nice pair of pyjamas, junk food and films to eat away my feelings and cry at romance movies. I just hope Niall is okay and hasn't been taking this too hard. He needs to realise none of this is his fault and never will be. He was never the one who did wrong in this relationship and when I see him I will make sure he knows for every minute of everyday how much I love him.

I can't give up on this relationship, we've been through way too much to let some bunch of horrible girls get between us.

(Author's note: Hey guys!! I'm so so so sorry for how long I haven't updated for, nearly a year!! I've had the most hectic year ever, been so crazy and soo many ups and downs, a lot more downs than ups but as a family we've gotten on with it. I promise to start updating again! Only a short chapter because I wanted to get something published. Thank you again for all the reads I'm so overwhelmed, I've missed writing so much and will be getting back to it, hope you are all still enjoying!! Peace out!)