Fate - Jimmy Garoppolo

Chapter 22

Warning: This chapter contains some sensitive content!

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"When...did you find out?" Jimmy asked, trying to absorb all the information.

"When I moved here. I was late and so I took a test, turned out positive. I then went to the doctors, to make sure of everything. I thought I would only be 4 weeks along, turned out I was 4 months."

"W-What?!"

Isabelle sighed. "While I was with you in Foxborough, I thought I was getting my period regularly. What usually was a 7-day thing suddenly became 3 days and just spotting. But I didn't think much of it because I thought it was just stress, which turned out to be wrong."

"But...you weren't experiencing anything."

"Not everyone has pregnancy symptoms."

"Why didn't you tell me then?" He asked, his eyes full of sadness.

"Because I was shocked. Because I didn't know what to do. I didn't tell anyone."

"You told Emmanuel."

"He was visiting me at the time. His family was visiting me so they were there at the time. If I had...If I had been able to protect my—our—baby girl for the full nine months in me, you would have known. I would have never thought of hiding her from you. And when it all happened, I knew how much it affected me and I didn't want you to feel that."

Jimmy takes a deep breath as he runs a hand through his hair. "I'm torn between being upset about this whole thing and just being annoyed that you had to go through this on your own."

Isabelle shook her head. "I didn't tell you all of this for you to feel sad for me."

"Bella..."

"What happened happened. I was wrong for not telling you but you had no right to assume those things about me."

"Bella, please, those just came out. I didn't mean them."

"Those kinds of words don't just come out, James. Those are feelings you've kept hidden for so long now and they've finally come out." Isabelle sighed as she wiped a tear away. "How did you expect us to continue our relationship if deep down, you were still hurt?"

"Baby, I wasn't. I don't know why I said what I said. I was upset with the way I found out and I just couldn't control my words."

"What if this never happened? What if I was never pregnant and this secret never existed? What if we continued our relationship and a year from now, we have this big fight and you get angry and can't control your words? What do you think would happen? We would just continue on with it?"

Jimmy didn't know what to say because in a way, she was right. He hid his feelings for so long and didn't acknowledge them until something had pushed him over the edge.

She got up and grabbed her bag as Jimmy quickly stood up and grabbed her hand. "Please don't go."

"When I told you about everything, I did it because I owe it to you. You have the right to know. I didn't do it to defend myself and get you to forgive me. You didn't let me explain from the start."

"I told you I didn't mean it! What the hell do you expect me to do? I found out from fucking social media, Isabelle."

"Ask me first!" She replied, raising her voice. "Ask me what happened. That's what you do. You don't go saying that I had an abortion or put my child up for adoption because I chose my career over them. You're the one who is supposed to know me, James! You! The guy who has always understood me. The guy who has always loved me and wanted the best for me. Just because I didn't stay in Foxborough doesn't give you the right to say those things to me."