Breaking My Heart (On-Going)

Chapter 15

Autumn's POV

"Kumain ka pa", he tried opening a conversation.

Tahimik lang kasi ako ever since we entered this Fine Filipino Restaurant na pinili niya to have our  lunch with.

"I'm fine", he looked at me unbelievably.

"Pero kaunti pa lang ang nakakain mo", here we go again.

"What is it that you want to talk about?", I eat the piece of chocolate cake that he ordered for dessert.

"I'm sorry", he said for the nth times, I just roll my eyes.

"I said forget it",

"Autumn--",

"What for?", medyo napataas ang boses ko.

Napatungo naman siya, hindi makatingin ng diretso sa akin.

"You know what Rence? Kahit ilang sorry pa ang sabihin mo, wala nang magbabago so just stop it", I tried calming my self down, ayoko namang mag-eskandalo dito no!

"I want us to have a fresh start", kapagkuwan ay pahayag niya, napataas naman ang kilay ko sa kaniya.

"Wag kang magpatawa, please lang tsaka  anong fresh start ang pinagsasabi mo?",

"Let us be friends", he said as if he's just having a business proposition.

"There's no need for us to be friends, kasi dati pa man ay hindi na tayo magkaibigan", it's true, kaibigan niya ang pinsan ko but not me.

"Then liligawan na kita", tiningnan ko siya, hindi makapaniwala.

"You know what let's stop this nonsense conversation, sinasayang mo ang oras ko, I thought you're going to say something important", kumuha ako ng pera sa bag ko at inilagay iyon sa mesa, tatayo na ako ngunit nagsalita siyang muli.

"I want to take it slow pero ayaw mo naman, so didiretso na ako sa panliligaw sa iyo", sinasabi ko na nga, this bullshit lunch with him is a part of some tricks he's pulling on me. Liligawan? Anong akala niya sa akin nahihibang?

"Pardon? Kung wala kang matinong magawa sa buhay mo, spare me because to  tell you honestly I do not have time to play with you, find someone else, I'm not interested", akala niya siguro ay mauuto niya ako. Hoy, lokohin mo lelang mo!

"And who says I'm playing", nagsmirk pa ang damuhong hudyo, bwisit ang gwapo.

"Besides may usapan tayo na kapag pinagbigyan kita sa lunch na ito ay titigilan mo na ako", I reasoned. Tama, that's my last resort, sorry you might be playing it well, but I am much brighter. Ginaya ko pa ang pagsmirk niya, akala mo ha!

"I didn't agree with you, remember?", aba't sumasagot pa, tsaka anong hindi nag-agree? Inisip kong maigi at naalalang hindi nga pala siya sumagot  nang sabihin kong fine and please never bother me again.

Napangisi pa ang hudas nang mapansin na natigilan ako.

"Whatever, forget it any way ako pa rin naman ang masusunod", hindi ko na hinintay pa na makasagot siya, I immediately make my way out. Urgh! Nakakainis, ano ba ang pinagsasabi niya?!

Nang makalabas ako saka ko lang naalala na sasakyan nga pala niya ang ginamit papunta dito. Urgh! Nakakabuwisit talaga!

"Autumn, wait", papara na sana ako ng taxi ngunit hinila niya ako.

I bumped into his rock hard chest. Shit! He smells so good. And his abs, I can feel it. Shit! Shit! What the hell on  earth am I thinking? I mentally scolded myself for that.

"Are you done smelling me?", he asked cooly.

Agad naman akong bumitaw sa kaniya.

"What the hell is your problem?", bawi ko sa pagkapahiya, ang bruho todo ngisi naman.

"I should take you home, I brought you here so I'll take you back", malawak pa rin ang pagkakangiti na pahayag nito.

"I can handle my self", pagmamatigas ko.

"Let's go", he ignored me at hinatak na ako patungo sa sasakyan niya.

Padabog naman akong naupo sa passenger's seat, ipinararating ang ang aking disgusto.

Walang imik naman siyang nagmaneho pabalik sa Saavedra & Andrada Corp. Nang makarating kami ay mabilis at walang sabi- sabi akong bumaba. Gosh, I don't think I can last another minute with him, pakiramdam ko ay guguho na nang proteksiyong binuo ko laban sa kaniya.

"Autumn, I'm sorry--",

"When will you stop huh?", I cut him off.

"Hindi naman para sa nangyari noon ang inihihingi ko ng tawad, I'm saying sorry in advance because I can't stay away from you", he said looking directly in my eyes.

My heart start to beat fast against my chest. I can't speak, I'm lost for words. Damn him!

"I'll get going, see you tomorrow", then he kissed me on cheeks.

He immediately get in his car and drove off.

Napako na ako sa kinatatayuan ko. I can't move, gosh I still can't believe it.

He kissed me.

He kissed me.

He kissed me.

He kissed me.

He kissed me.

Paulit- ulit na nareplay sa utak ko ang ginawa niya. Napahawak ako sa pisngi ko na hinalikan niya. It's real, I'm not dreaming. What was that for?! Urrgh, he's really something. 

If it's before, malamang nangisay  na ako sa kilig pero iba na ngayon. I should be careful because I never knew kung ano ba ang tumatakbo sa utak niya. Maybe he's just trying to fool me!

Because of what has happened, I've decided to just go home and rest. Pakiramdam ko eh nadrain ang lahat ng lakas ko. Well, ikaw ba naman ang ikiss sa cheeks ng long time love mo! Oh no, scratch that, I mean taong kinaiinisan mo! Yeah that's it.

I fell asleep thinking about random things.

Nagising ako sa kalam ng aking sikmura. I grab my phone on the table beside my bed and checked the time. It's 7:30 in the evening, that explains my growling stomach.

I walked downstairs to check if there's something to eat in the kitchen. I was halfway the stairs nang makarinig ako ng mga boses coming from the sala. I shook my head to confirm that I am not just dreaming. Well, I am not so I hurried up to check what's going on there.

And to my surprise........

"Mom", hindi ko na napigilan na takbuhin ang pagitan namin at yakapin siya ng mahigpit.

"Autumn, anak", her voice sounds so happy and so I am.

"Mom", I still can't believe I am finally hugging her. I have longed for this for 5 freaking years!

"I missed you", her voice cracked, my eyes begun to water too.

"I missed you more mom, God knows how much I've prayed for us to be together again", I couldn't fight it anymore, I cried while hugging my mother. Seeing her hurting hurts me more.

"Ako din anak, araw araw kong ipinagdadasal na sana ibalik ka na niya sa akin", she said in between her sobs.

Our emotions can't be contain, the feeling of happiness overflowed that you can't measure it. No words can explain what we're feeling right now.

To be continued...............................

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