𝐁𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐬 • 𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐠

4. Tears

Yeosang held himself together long enough to excuse himself to the bathroom, everyone else none the wiser. But as soon as the bathroom door was closed he lent against it, sliding to the cold tiled floor, pulling his knees to his chest and finally letting his tears fall.

He could admit to himself that Yunho having another best friend was ok, but it still hurt. Yunho was Yeosang's everything, and Yeosang thought that Yunho felt the same but maybe he didn't.

Yeosang wished he had the courage to tell Yunho how he felt, he just hadn't yet.

Yeosang also wondered why Yunho hadn't told him that he couldn't come. Yunho had told him previously in the week that he would come, so why did he change his mind? Wasn't he more important than this Mingi guy? And why was Mingi so damm close to Yunho in the photo? Yeosang wished Yunho would hold him like that and take photos of the both of them too.

Time passed, a little too much time, and a knock came on the door from his mother asking if he was ok because his friends were all wondering why he hadn't come back.

Yeosang made up an excuse, that in a way wasn't completely a lie, saying that he felt sick and just needed a moment.

His mother advised him through the door to have a panadol with a glass of water and then she walked off. A couple moments later though there was a new voice.

"Sang?" Seonghwa said through the door. "You ok your mum said you weren't feeling well?"

"Just a little stomach bug. I think I ate too much" Yeosang said, trying not to choke. Where was his inhaler when he needed it??

"Can I come in?" Seonghwa asked.

Yeosang wiped his tears, forcing a brave smile as he opened the door.  "It's ok, I'm ok, let's go back to the party"

Yeosang went to walk past Seonghwa who was standing at the bathroom doorway with a look of concern but instead of letting him past, the older pushed him back into the bathroom and closed the door.

Seonghwa was very perceptive and he'd gotten very good at reading Yeosang's moods, what was real and what was fake.

"You don't look ok. Tell me" Seonghwa said simply.

Yeosang bit his lip, looking at the floor. He couldn't make eye contact with Seonghwa, he didn't want his mood to get in the way of Seonghwa's happiness.

"Sangie tell me". This time he grasped Yeosang's arms in his hands and with that simple touch Seonghwa had turned on Yeosang's waterworks as tears fell down his face.

Yeosang was embarrassed and he dived forwards burying himself in an unsuspecting Seonghwa's chest.

Seonghwa was taken aback but he hugged Yeosang back.

Seonghwa ran his hand through Yeosang's hair, rubbing circles into Yeosang's back, having no idea why Yeosang was this upset.

"Yeosang what happened? This seems a lot more than you just being sick" Seonghwa said as he pulled a little away from Yeosang.

Seonghwa knew that Yeosang liked Yunho, a lot, but Yeosang never flaunted the fact since he knew that Seonghwa liked him.

But because Seonghwa knew about Yeosang's love for Yunho it meant that when Yeosang shakily pulled out his phone and showed it to Seonghwa that Seonghwa knew immediately why Yeosang was upset.

Seonghwa looked at the phone, closed facebook, locked the phone and then pulled Yeosang back into his arms.

"It's ok, don't cry Sangie, it's just a photo"

"It's not just a p-photo though, Yunho s-says he loves him, he even called him bro" Yeosang blubbered "He's never called me bro"

"Sang, I know how much he means to you, but I think you need to remember that Yunho was bound to make friends at his school, and he was bound to get close to them. I can see you care about him a lot, but I'm sure he cares about you just as much, you've both just . ." Seonghwa paused for a second thinking for the right word " . . .transcended words, I'm sure he loves you too, he just doesn't need words to say it"

"You really think he loves me too?"

"I'm sure of it, and you wanna know why?" Seonghwa said.

Yeosang looked up at Seonghwa for the first time since they'd stepped into the bathroom.

"Why?"

Seonghwa smiled "Because I love you . . . like a friend, a best friend" he quickly added "and if I can love you then I'm sure Yunho loves you"

The tears that Yeosang had were practically gone and his expression was now one of complete utter confusion.

"You love me?"

"Yes. I know it's literally been not even a year but you're very important to me Sang. I don't think I've ever felt so protected or ever felt true happiness until you appeared in my life. You've looked after me, Sang. You threw me a birthday party! No one's ever done that for me. So yes I love you. But you don't need to say it back, I never expected you too . .I also never expected to tell you" he muttered ". . but anyway, my main point is, is that if I can love you than I can guarantee that Yunho loves you even more than I do, you've known each other way longer" Seonghwa reassured.

"So I guess what your trying to say is that Yunho loving Mingi is like you loving me?"

"Um yeah more or less" Seonghwa said as he scratched his neck, "We're best friends and I love you . . bro" Seonghwa said so very awkwardly as he gently punched Yeosang's shoulder with a strange laugh and an expression that looked like a mixture of pain and happiness.

A part of Yeosang questioned whether the love Seonghwa expressed was the same, didn't Seonghwa like like him? Wouldn't that mean the love he had would have a different meaning, hence the love Yunho expressed for Mingi could be different too?

Yeosang was too young to be thinking about such philosophical and deep things, he was only in year 7 after all.

Yeosang ended up just smiling, he'd calmed down while Seonghwa had been holding and comforting him, swaying gently side to side like he had been hushing a baby.

Even though he was confused with the whole concept of love and feelings right now he decided to just go with Seonghwa's way of thinking.

"We should head back out everyone's probably wondering where you are" Yeosang said pointing at the bathroom door with his chin.

"Yeah we should" Seonghwa said, finally stepping back and letting Yeosang go.

A/n Do you have a Ult Ateez Ship?