𝐁𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐬 • 𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐠

10. Breaking Hearts

Despite vowing to not mingle in Yunho's love life it didn't stop Yeosang from dreaming. Yunho was like a drug, and his addiction was hard to get rid of.

It was kind of like when you had a crush on a teacher and then you find out that they have a girlfriend or husband but you continue to like them anyway, you just have an inner knowing that they'll never be yours; that's how Yeosang was.

Yunho would never be his, because Yunho and Mingi breaking up was not an option. They were like peaches and cream, ok on their own but oh so perfect when they were together, they were such a perfect combination it made one wonder why they were ever separated in the first place.

Yeosang was forever in the land of Yunho, holding onto his dreams, until a particular evening at Yeosang's house, the last weekend before they started their final year of school.

Mingi was such a sweet guy and he was so sweet that he had allowed Yunho to sleepover at Yeosang's house even though he knew Yeosang was gay, and Yeosang was sure Mingi of all people had probably picked up on how he felt about Yunho his boyfriend. It was a testament to the trust Mingi held for Yunho that allowed him to let Yunho spend the night at another boys place.

Anyway, so that's exactly what they were doing. They were both curled up under Yeosang's blankets, the lights were out and the room was silent.

"Yeo? You awake?" Yunho had whispered.

"Yun its been barely 10 minutes, of course I'm still awake" Yeosang said as he rolled over in bed, he couldn't see Yunho but he knew he was only a few inches away.

"Good, well um, I want to tell you something. But you can't freak out ok"

"OK" Yeosang said stretching they 'K', "What's up?"

"Um . .oh god it's so hard to say this. I've been wanting to tell you since er it happened, but I wanted to tell you in person since it'd be weird over the phone and um. I haven't told anyone, but honestly you're the only person I'm actually comfortable with telling . .um"

Yeosang could hear Yunho doing some deep breathing and Yunho was also wriggling around nervously.

"Yunho just spit it out!!!" Yeosang exclaimed, all this waiting was eating him alive.

"Mingi and I had sex"

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. .

. . .

"whAT?!"

Had Yeosang heard right? Yunho didn't just say what he thought he did right?

His ears didn't want to believe it. His heart couldn't accept it.

Yeosang sat up and switched on his bedside table lamp on its lowest setting.

He looked down at Yunho whom was looking up at him with shy eyes, he was resting on his stomach under the covers and his head was propped on one of his hands as he nervously chewed his nails.

"Y-you and M-mingi did. . . what?"

"We had sex" Yunho said rather confidently before covering his face in his hands.

Yeosang was frozen staring at Yunho, they've been dating for such a short time, not even 2 months. How had this happened so quickly???

"No no no no no no no no" Yeosang said to himself.

"I wanted to tell someone because it's so exciting for me, but you can see now why I couldn't just tell anyone yeah?"

Yeosang found the strength to nod, and then his stupid curious mouth took over as he asked a question he knew he didn't really want to hear the answer to but yet still wanted to ask anyway.

"How did it happen?"

Yunho peeped out from behind his fingers, "You really wanna know?"

Yeosang nodded and then mentally slapped himself. Why the fuck did he want to know?!

"Well it was new years and I was at his house, and we were doing a movie night so we could stay awake till midnight, his parents weren't home because they were at some new years party, so we had the whole house to ourselves, and he kissed me, and this kiss it felt so much more than usual, and trust me we've kissed a lot since we've started dating, and then I don't know, his fingers went places, and then my shirt went bye, his went went bye, the rest of our clothes went bye and then we were. ." Yunho made a circle with his thumb and pointer finger and then jerked his other pointer finger through the hole ". . .you know" he ended with.

Yeosang was silent, his lip trembling, unsure of what to say. "Idiot, Idiot, Idiot" he was now telling himself.

"Dont look so worried Yeo!! He took care of me, he made sure we were safe"

Yunho suddenly squirmed and dropped his face in his pillow with a little squeal and he kicked his legs excitedly under the sheets.

Yeosang heart cracked in two and in a flash he turned off the light and dug himself under the covers, he turned his back to Yunho and placed his hand over his mouth to hold in a choked sob he had there.

Tears dripped down his face and he hopped to god Yunho wouldn't say any more. Why was it that he always had to ask extra questions that ruined his whole existence?

He asked these questions but yet he never truly wanted the answers.

Yeosang couldn't help but sniffle, and in a brave voice he said "My nose is so damm runny, must be my asthma playing up" He then laughed awkwardly, grateful his voice didn't crack, not that it ever really did.

"Dude you should blow your nose or use your inhaler" Yunho chuckled, to Yeosang's joy not questioning anything. "Anyway thanks for listening Yeo, besides Mingi you truly are the bestest guy ever, Mingi and I wouldn't be together if you hadn't encouraged me to ask him about his feelings. I don't know what I'd do without you. I hope you find someone who makes you happy too Yeo and know I'm here for support just like you were there for me"

The final nail in the coffin had been hammered.

Yeosang was dead to the world.

Thankfully it was Yunho who spoke again rounding up this horrid conversation "We should get some sleep, goodnight Yeo"

Yeosang screwed his eyes shut and gripped his sheets "Goodnight Yun"

A/n y'all lovelies really be liking Yungi. . .i'm taking notes 😏