𝐁𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐬 • 𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐠

17. Yeosangiverse

Seonghwa sat Yeosang down on his couch and then popped some brownies on a plate before coming back and sitting cross legged across from him.

Yeosang grabbed a brownie, but he didn't eat it just yet "So what happened when you left? Where did you go? When did you come back? What do you do for a living-"

Seonghwa held up his hand motioning Yeosang to stop talking "Whoa, Whoa, Lets go one question at a time ok"

"Ok" Yeosang answered, holding in his questions that were right on the edge of his tongue ready to spill out, stuffing the brownie there instead.

"What happened when I left, let's start there"

Yeosang bobbed his head while munching.

"I was really upset after what you did, and like I told you earlier I think I reacted a little bit too ambiguously when I left, particulary because I'd, in a way, set myself up too. I think in the back of my mind I always knew you were going to hurt me oneday, I just hoped you wouldn't and maybe I was wrong. When you'd said Yunho's name that hurt a lot, my wish that I was wrong crumbled away"

"I loved you, and I'm pretty sure you knew that, so when you broke me I just needed to get away, and I remember thinking how was I going to do that when I see you every day, and then I recall I was looking at my globe in my room and I was like . .If I was in another country then there'd be no chance of seeing you"

"At first in my mind it was a joke and then I mentioned it to mum and she told me that if I wanted to go I could, she'd been putting some money aside and she'd saved quite a lot since she and dad broke up and separated their bank accounts. I had money saved too and the next thing you know I had a one way plane ticket for America and off I went".

Yeosang licked a crumb off his finger before speaking "Why America? I know you spoke a little English, but, it was our final year of high school and you wanted to spend it in another country who spoke a completely different language to you . .like how could you do that?"

"Well . .I think my English is a lot better then maybe I might have let on. You remember that editing job I had for the blog?"

"Yeah"

"Well I wasn't just editing, I was editing English into Korean. I already knew a lot of basic English from primary school, and when a foreigner friend of mums had heard that I studied English they immediately assumed that I was fluent which is why they had asked me to help translate and edit the English text they were writing into Korean so their blog column could reach a wider audience"

"You know better than anyone about my uh, home life, so hopefully you can understand that when I was offered cash in hand it was an offer I would never refuse. I studied English double time once I had that job and because Mum knew a little English too she was able to help. So with each translation I learnt more and more and became fluent over time. Eventually our conversations weren't over email anymore, but I could actually just call them to discuss their blog."

Like Yeosang had said he knew Seonghwa spoke a little English, but how did he not know that Seonghwa had become fluent? "How did I not know this??" Yeosang said out loud.

Seonghwa shrugged "I don't know, you never asked. I know I told you I was studying English, you probably just weren't paying attention because you were thinking about Yunho"

Yeosang bit his lip, "Sorry". Seonghwa was right, if he'd paid more attention then he would have known.

"It's ok, I'm sure there's stuff about you that I don't know . .maybe. Although I like to think that while your knowledge excelled in the Yunhoverse, my knowledge excelled in the Yeosangiverse. How is Yunho by the way?"

"He's good, still with Mingi, very happy, I think Mingi's going to propose soon he keeps asking me whether Yunho is a silver or a gold sort of person" Yeosang laughed lightly "I'm happy for them, they're perfect for each other. I only wish I'd realised that sooner and moved on with you"

Seonghwa blushed "Well we can't change the past. I just hope you understand how lucky you are that a person like me still likes you even after 3 years"

Now it was Yeosang's turn to blush "I know, and I'm not going to fuck up this time because I want you and only you." Yeosang smiled "Ok before we both get too sappy, tell me about your time in America"

Seonghwa pressed a finger to his cheek in thought "America was a lot scarier than I thought it would be. I moved in with a host family who helped settle me into life over there, so that was convenient, but it was still a terrible idea to switch schools right at the very end of high school. It was an experience though, and knowing English certainly helped. I'm sure if I had only of spoken Korean then it would have been very lonely. I should give credit to you, I don't think I'd have confidence to build friendships over there if it weren't for you"

Yeosang gazed questionably, and Seonghwa continued.

"You were always so confident, so when I started at my American school I just thought of you and tried to be more confident like you. Kind of ironic really, I hated you and yet you were still on my mind and helping me without actually being there. Any who everyone was actually really nice over there, they kept telling me I look like this guy called Mars from a group called KQ Fellaz, I don't see the resemblance but they seemed to think that we looked similar"

"Oh I've heard of that group! You're way more handsome" Yeosang smiled bashfully.

"Oh shush" Seonghwa said waving his hands.