Belongs to him [CHANBAEK]❤

Part - 13

Chanyeol POV

Kyungsoo already left me 20 minutes ago..But i couldn’t  make my move..
I felt my chest was stuffed with so many things that could  suffocated me. I wanted to brust out but i felt some lumps in my heart.
I broke into pieces, most of the pieces were missing...My best friend, my Baek loved me. For the Past  6 years he  suffered the pain of betrayal which i pushed him into. The venom i planted inside me is nothing to compare with Baekhyun's grief...What did i do to my Baek? I wanted my answer but whom should i on ? How could i face him again? Not after this. My guilt swallows me instant just thinking of the certain person.. I went to the bar. I wanted to get drunk..Coz my senses wouldn’t help me either to forgive me...I lost count of how many shots i drink..I wanted to be  drunk but drunkenness was smiled at me tonight.. I was drunk bit enough to sense about surrounding me..At 12 a.m i finally exited the bar..

My head felt dizzy but my dizziness screamed only seeing one face Baekhyun.

As soon as i pushed the door a pairs of tender hands hold my before my ass could touch the floor...Our eyes locked and once again i lost..My guilt stabbed me thousand times more now..After so much i did to him, he is still here for me without showing his back..I pushed him away screamed not to touch me..Not for that i hate him but i hate myself now..I don't deserve his concern after how had i broken him..But my Baekhyun is Baekhun as always... He helped me to get in my room... Just at moment he cupped my face tenderly i lost my mind,  i hugged him which i never imagine to do..And everything is blacked out after that.

I woke up Baekhyun voice..But he never did it in last 6 months not even once...My head felt like brust out in a moment.  Baekhyun gave me glass of lime water.  After drinking it, i felt much clear.. Actually my system didn’t set up properly. So without any delay or uttering anything i entered the bathroom for a cold shower.

At dining table

I'm not really feeling hugry. My headache gives me a hard time..Baekhyun gives me hangover soup..I drink the soup quietly.. I remembered what had happened yesterday  and i can clearly see concern in Baekhyun's eyes though he doesn’t say anything. But i choose to forget, not get to effect on his face.. To light up up the situation  i ask him about Huniee who is upstairs with Ms. Hana...'yes, after leaving my room, i had already meet my Son"..I eat my breakfast avoiding any serious talking..

"What do you think ? How could i still so calm headed after introduced to my bitter past ? Why don't i let Baekhyun know everything, right?
But, Won't it be too cruel to dig his wound again ? That's why i choose to me silent.  Make my emotions handicapped.. Because my Baekhyun doesn’t deserve this..He can't be cry on me. The tears he had already shed i can't return back but i Won't let him shed more. His tears are precious too. He shouldn’t know the truth..I'll be more at ease if he hates me on the fact i betrayed him😭😭 I acted like a jerk back then..My Baek deserves only happiness.. For me he had stopped blooming but now I'll mend it...For that if i had to pay enough I'll...
But i can't let him know...That’s why i decide I'll leave korea in a month for sure...In Baekhyun life Chanyeol was a name of betray which I'll be make sure to continue.. But in this last one month i want to repent for my mistake... I want to cherish this one month with him just like we were as  Best Friend."
It’s already too much hard for me after knowing the love Baekhyun hold for me..But I'll do it only for him."

"Baekhyun,  i call his name" 
" Yes, Mr. Park" He looks at me with a caring look..." I missed you, Baek, I'm sorry"  i mumble in my thought.

"Baekhyun,  can you stop calling formally?"  i tell him.

Baekhyun seem confused by my words.

"Can you call me only Chanyeol, Please " i open my mouth but this time with a pleading look.

I think Baekhyun gets shock my sudden change.. But it’s true i can't afford to see him sad more..

" Ok, Chanyeol " Baekhyun agrees on me.. Maybe after so much had happend last night he feels afraid to hurt me by rejecting..

"Thank you, Baek" i give him a smile.

"I'm sorry, Baek.  I have to go far from you, so far from your life, your happiness. I have to do this"

Author got depressed.. Unable to update yesterday.This is the shortest  part till now. Actually i can't explain how my Chanbaek effects me. So their pains hit me too.  Forgive me for being irresponsible🙏🙏Give me sometime to grip myself😢😢

Chanbaek ❤❤❤❤