Little Bambina

Seventeen

Allison

Life has been great for the last few days. Carlos was so persistent on taking me out again but I refused  telling him that I don't want to play around with his nor Luca's emotions. It took a lot of convincing from my part. I might or might not have had him eat my pussy for a short while. Sigh... I just need to figure my shit out. Like what do I really want to do with this whole situation. I'm so confused. And Luca isn't yet back from Germany. He's been gone for nine days now. I have to confess to him about Carlos. I have to tell him that it's not easy for me to only choose one as I want them both.

Kells is over at my house. We're in my room and she's been awfully quiet for a while now just busy typing away on her phone with a stupid grin on her face.
"Who are you texting?"
She quickly puts her phone down.
"Nobody."
"Come on, let me see." I try to take her phone but she has a tight grip on it.
"Let me see who you texting."
"No."
"Are you keeping secrets from me now?" I give up from wanting to take her phone. "Don't go there, Ally."
"I'm being for real. Since when do you keep secrets from me?"
"I- look... Its not that I'm keeping things from you. I just haven't told you yet. But I will, I just need time."
I look at her appalled. Did this bitch just say that to me?

"You need time?" I ask making sure I heard her right.
"Yes, please understand. It's not easy for me either." She tries to explain.
"Do you remember the one promise we made to each other?"
"Ugh, Allison. Please not now."
"Do you remember the promise?"
"Yes, I do. To never keep anything from each other."
"Then why the hell are you keeping stuff from me? I even told you about my dad's illegal activities and that's family secret. That should show you how much I trust you. Shouldn't you have the same trust in me?"

"I do." She holds my hands. "I really do trust you, its just that I don't know how to put it." I raise an eyebrow at her. "Try me."
"Please don't take this the wrong way, it's just how I feel."
"I promise I won't." I look at her sincerely.

"Sometimes, it's just hard talking to you about my life cause yours is so perfect–"
"My life is not perfect." I interject.
"Just let me finish."
"Okay, my bad."

"As I was saying, your life is perfect. At least to me it is. You don't have to worry about most things in life like me. You're well sorted out. You have a beautiful home, although strict but loving father. At least you have one of your parents I have none. You're financially secured, you're basically set for life. I have to go through shit just to get by. My aunt kicked me out of her house about a year ago and that's when I started going out with older men who would give me money in exchange for my company. I was basically an escort but then I figured that if I slept with them I'd get more money. So that's how I survive. I have to sleep with men the same age as my father just to get by in life. I can't get a job cause I don't have qualifications and I refuse to do any under the table jobs. I may not enjoy sleeping with these men but I like the reward. I have my own apartment that's already paid for for almost a year, I have a car and fancy clothes. The money I get from these men helps me pay for tuition too. I know I told you that I only date older men with deep pockets cause they're matured but that not the reason and now you know. I would really like to date someone of my peer for a change but what can they give me? Nothing. So until I get my degree and start working I'm just gonna have to suck it up and do what I do. I couldn't tell you cause I didn't want you to judge me, you're my one friend and I didn't want you to leave me. I'm sorry for not telling you about it but I hope you understand things from my perspective."

I had tears running down my face when she finished. I had no idea she was going through all of that. It must be so hard for her, I can't imagine having to go through all of that.

"I'm so sorry you have to go through this. You shouldn't have to be going through this." I hug her.
"Shh, don't cry for me, Ally. You don't have to feel sorry for me. I'm good, okay?"
I let go of her. "Okay. I can't believe your aunt kicked you out and you didn't tell me. I swear I strongly dislike her."
"You know that you can say the word 'hate'. Just say you hate her."
"Nah, but I hope you're protecting yourself. You know, like when you, you know... Like sexually."
She laughs and I laugh along.
"Yeah, no glove no love. Plus I'm on birth control too. You should get on it too."
"Ugh, I have to think about it. I don't think I'll be having sex anytime soon."
"Miss me with that bullshit." She rolls her eyes at me.
"Okay, I don't know for sure but I'll think about it."
"There's nothing to think about, just do it. It's not like you're gonna plan to have sex, you know. It might just happen unexpectedly. I just want you to be ready." I roll my eyes at her.
"Okay, we'll go together." She claps her hands excitedly.
"Bitch I'm starving." She blurts out.
"When are you ever not hungry?"
"I'm feeling McDonald's. You feel it too?" She wiggles her eyebrows. "Let's just go."

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My professor was being such an ass today. Telling me bullshit that my work is child's play. I stayed up late last night finishing off my painting. I barely got any sleep. I've been working on it for a week, it may not be my best work but it's decent enough to get me at least a C.

Now it's time to go home. Ugh, my life is boring. I don't have a social life I'm not even on social media. Just how much more boring can I get. I could make friends here with my class mates but I'm just so antisocial. I get socially awkward.

"Bambina." I scream from fright. How is he here? He said he'll be back tomorrow.
"Luca, I thought you'd be coming back tomorrow."
"I missed you." He smirks. Gosh, he's so hot. And his hair is in a perfect man bun.
"I missed you too." I hug his tall frame.
"What are you doing here?" I adjust my backpack.
"I came to surprise you. Give daddy a kiss." He demands and I don't hesitate to kiss him. He gropes my ass then gives it a hard slap. "Ouch! What was that for?" I rub my ass to ease the pain.
"I know you went to see my brother." I gasp. Shit.
"H-how did you know?" I start to panic.
"I'm not mad, relax. But we do need to talk. He told me what you said to him."
"He did?" Carlos is such a snitch. How could he tell Luca about our conversation. I'm never trusting his ass again. "Yes. Now come on. Let's get going, we have much to discuss." He leads me to his car and opens the door for me. Before I can get in he slaps my ass again much harder this time.
"Fuck, Luca! What the hell?!"
"That's for kissing him and letting him touch what's mine again." He growls.