I lock the door at work. I'm in the parking lot before the urge to check comes. I put my foot down and keep going.
I'm halfway home now and the feeling of anxiety becomes worse.
Imagine if you actually didn't lock the door, you can't turn back now so you'll have to live with it. I told you to go back and check.
It's harder to ignore now because they're right. I should've checked. But i always check.
But what if you didn't this time and the door is actually open? You'll lose your job.
"I can't go back now!" i cry.
No you can't so instead you'll stay up all night worrying, hoping the door is locked. All night.
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Conversations with my OCD
Short StoryI am ashamed to say that these are the daily conversations that i have in my head.