the captured red hibiscus flower (editing)

"i still get jealous"

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James pov

        I follow the abulance to the hospital, and rush throught the doors. following the streacher that alexis was on. feeling as if the depressive atmosphere had a target on my back ready to suck me into depression. and I knew I was going to give in, if Alexis isn't ok. my heart sank at the very thought. I held alexis' hand as they rush her into the surgery room.

        a nurse pulls my hand away from alexis "you can't be in here." and she dragged me out of the surgery room like a child. I reluctently walk into the waiting room, and sit down and bury my head in my hands. I really hope she is ok. why didn't I call the police? Larry was bluffing. I could have been the one to rescue her! not asher. even the name sickens me. "hey, did you get any word on hows she doing?" speak of the devil! I look up and met a worried Asher. "she's in surgery. so to answer your question, no." I spat he gulped and nodded sensing the tension. "ok.... um thanks"

        I nod in reply "why isn't derrk or zack here?" asher grab the back of his neck nervously "um derrek is on his way. but Zach had to go Home, his parents were wondering why He kept skipping school. wait don't you have school too?" I shrug "my main concearn is Alexis. when this is over I'll worry bout school. besides it's none of your buisness."

i was being rude, I know. but I didn't like the way he looks and worries about alexis. just then derick walks in, looking tired, with overwhemling nagging aniexity. I stood up to greet him "Hey, derrick. she's in surgrey right now. we have to wait before we can see her." he nodded his features were somber as he sat down In the waiting room. I felt bad for the poor guy, he probably blames himself for everything alexis has went through. I know she doesn't see it that way at all but, I can see why derrek might though. I shook my thoughts out of my head, and sat back down, dropping my head; with my hands folded on my lap. I was anxious to find out about Alexis, and see how she was holding up.

        I began to sorrowfully reminisce the event leading up to Larry's capture. I can't imagine what she was feeling when Larry aimed the gun at her, I swear my eyes never left larry, I watched his every move only able to think of alexis in that moment, and how if he killed her a part of me would die also. Just the thought of losing alexis would- I felt my heart constrict inside my chest with pain. I stood up and turned to derrick and asher. "look, this disinfectant smell is really getting to me. I need to get some air, so I'm going to get some starbucks. anyone want somthing?"

         they looked up at me, the pain in derrek's dead eyes perked up with a glimpse of light, at the sound of coffee. I took down derriks order. then i took down asher's order whilist studing his sad and worried expression. I huffed and exited the building. frustration ran through my viens, how can he look so sad? as If he had known alexis for a long time, he just meet her a few times. that was it! I got into my car, upset with this whole sittuation and Asher's very presence.

         I started the car and begin driving, And when I glanced over at the passenger's seat i thought of alexis. she wouldn't want me to be angry and jealous. I sucked in a deep breath and calmed down for alexis' sake. the more I thought about her the more I could feel the saddness, guilt and anger towards Larry. 

        A tear escaped my eye and I quickly wiped it away along with my emotions grow up! your acting like she's dying! she's a fighter she can deal, she'll get through this. I smiled knowing she wouldn't die on me. I ordered four drinks and drove straight back to the hospital I handed everyone there drinks including myself and realized I had one leftover opps I ordered one to many. I got one for Alexis too. derrick and asher cracked a smile but said nothing. as the already depressive atmosphere slowly engulfed us, and we sat in a bitter eerie silence.

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48 mins passed of complete silence, with the ocassional sipping of our coffee's as we stared at a sluggish clock. And finally after what seemed like ages the doctor came out to greet us. we all stood so our feet hoping to hear good news, the doctor sighed and wore a look of pity.

"I've got good and bad news, for you folks. I'm going to start with the bad news, you might want to sit." he paused and we sat unsure at what the doctor was hinting at. he shook his head and continued "I'm sorry to have to tell you this... but the poor girl was abused for years, bruise on top of bruise. she will have those scars physical and emotional for a long while. but with the right care and with time, her wounds will heal and her scars will fade." he looked us over a few times and realized only asher looked shocked.

         as for derrek and I we were well aware of the abuse. but completly unware of her scars. and hearing that Larry scared her not only emotionaly, but physically. only angered me all the more. but I kept my composer up and waited for the good news.

the doctor then smiled "now the good news, is she is out of surgery and will recover quickly. she just woke up from her surgery so you can now talk to her but don't overwhelm her too much." the doctor walked away and I turned to derrek "hey, go talk to your baby girl. she probably misses you. she hasn't seen you for years." derrek nodded and went into her room.

I went and sat down, Asher tried to create small talk to try and ease the aggravaiting tension. but dispite all his efforts to lighten the mood, all it seemed to do was infurate me. finally I lost it and I turned to him "look, I really dont want to chat! Ok... I appreciate your efforts to try and cheer me up, but it's not working. please... just leave me alone." Asher gulped and clenched his jaw. "I'm sorry, I understand she's your girlfriend and you don't like me but I-" I raised a hand cutting him off, as I stood and greeted derek who had just came from the room alexis was in. I smiled and without extanging words with derrick i rushed into Alexis' room.

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A/N: sory i took a month to upload, i kept putting it off cause i think people are bored of reading it

and that is understandable this is the first book ive written and i know i need to work on my writting skills. but i decided to be faithful to you and put out the nxt chapter. to the few people who still bear with me and read it i thank you. u mean alot :)

anyways heres another short chapter, im working on the next part buit it needs some tweaking so bear with me

well its late and i need sleep i love you all. have a good night or morning, afternoon what ever time zone your in let it be good lol

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