Dhoop Mein Barsaat

Chapter 9

Few months have passed since Sidharth visited the psychiatrist.Woh waha pay jana intentionally avoid karta tha.Par iss waqt woh mazburan waha pay gaya tha kyun ki mom nay use phone karke sakti say bola tha ki woh doctor ko visit kare.Mummy ko kabse uske liye itna fiqar hone laga?Wo pehle bhi akela reht tha,Tab to mummy itna pareshan nehi huya karti thi.Aur woh baar baar use doctor kay pass jane ko kyun bolti thi?Uske zehni iss bimari ka to uske ilawa kisiko nehi pata.Phir kyun mummy use yaha ane ko bolti rehti?Sid thought.
Dar asal uska kuch mahine pehle ek accident huya tha jiss wazah say woh apne zindegi ki chand saal bhula chuka tha.Magar us chand saal may aisa koi gair mamuli baat nehi huya tha jise bhulne ka use koi afsos ho. Aisa Sidharth ka sochna tha kyun ki bachpan hi say woh bohot systematic life guzaar ta tha aur ek "Achche Bachche" ki tarha usne apni studies khatam karke apne papa ki office join karlia tha.Ghar aur office ki ilawa woh kahi ata jata hi nehi tha.Kaam ki ilawa kuch aur sochne kay liye uske pass waqt aur interest dono hi nehi tha.Issiliye apne bhulaye huye un sab yado ko wapas yaad karne kay liye woh itna interested nehi tha. Magar uske family ko uske saab kuch yaad ane ke besabri say intezar tha kyun wo ek bohot importent cheese bhul kay baitha tha wo tha Natash aur uski shadi.Actually Shadi bhi nehi keh sakte kyuki Shadi say pehle hi uska yeh accident jo ho gaya tha.Aur woh log khulke usse kuch iss liye nehi keh pa rahe the kyun ki Doctor nay use kisi bhi tarha ki shock dene say mana kia tha.

Khair iss waqt woh doctor kay pass aaya huya tha aur zahir si baat hay Sana bhi aayi thi. Woh Sana ko bahir hi baith nay ko bola tha jiss wazah say Sana naraz ho gayi thi. Doctor nay usse kuch sawalat puche jiska usne achche say jawab diya.

Session

Doc:Close you eyes and take deep breath Sidharth.Try to recall how your accident happend.Can you remember that?
Sid:No...
Doc:Try to remember what happend before that. Can you remeber any thing or anyone?
Sid tried hard but couldn't remember anything. He found everything dark only.
Doc:What do you see?
Sid:Nothing.Everything is dark i can't see anything.
Doc:Do you hear something?
Sid felt someone saying
''Naam kya hay tumhara?'' This sound seems very familiar but he couldn't remember who said this to him.
''Sidharth mujhe yaha pay dar lag raha hay'' He opened his eyes hearing this.It's Sana's voice.He thought he heard this while trying to remember his blank past but no he was wrong. Sana was standing next to him right now. But he told her to stay outside the cabin. But she never listen to him and always do as she wish.
Doc:What happend Sidharth?Are you alright?
Sid:Yes doctor.I'm fine but i couldn't remember anything.
Doc:But it's very strange ki tumhe kuch bhi nehi yaad aata.Tum medicines to thik say lete ho na?
Sid doctor kay sawal kay jawab may aisa hargiz nehi bola ki woh janbuch kay dawayi nehi leta hay.Jab usme thik hone ke koi khwahish hi nehi to dawa kis baat ka?

After leaving doctor's chamber
Sid:Sana tumhe maine andar jane say mana kia tha na maine?Phir kyun gaye aandar?Usne Sana ko thora data.
Sana ab ussay gussa ho gayi thi aur kuch nehi bol rahi thi.
Sid:Ab kya huya? Kuch bol kyun nehi rahi?
Sana ab bhi chup thi.Woh log wapas ghar lautnay kay liye Parking taraf ja rahe the.Sid ka ek call aya to woh ek jagah khara hoke phone pay baat karne laga.Baat karte karte uska nazar ussay thori dur khari Sana pay gayi jo uske taraf dekh ro raha tha.
Sid:Tum ro kyun rahi ho.Achcha I'm sorry please royo to nehi.
Par Sana uska haath churake waha say jane lagi to side may rakhi ek trolley say takra kar gir gayi aur us trolley say giri ek scissor say uski haath cut gaya.
Sid:Oh my god!Tum aise harbari may kyunk chlate ho humesha?DekhoTumhe chot lag gayi na.Usne use uthnay ki koshish kiya to Sana nay uska dhakka day diya.
Sana:Don't touch me.Dur raho mujhsay.May jeeu ya maru tumhe isse kya?
Sid:Abhi bhi naraz ho mujhsay?Tumhe pata hay maine aisa kyu kiya phir bhi?
Sana Sid ki baate sunkar uske taraf gehre nigaho say dekh rahi thi aur uski akho may aanso tha.
Sid:Dard ho raha bohot?Tum yehi ruko may first aid box leke aata hu.
Wo apni Car may rakha First aid box lene gaya aur jab wo wapas aaya to waha koi nehi tha.Sana kaha gayi?Woh pareshan ho gaya tabhi piche say Sana nay usko pukara.
Sana:May yaha hu.
Sid:Kaha chali gayi thi?May dar gaya tha.
Usne Sana kay haath may patti kar dia aur abhi ghar wapas a gaye.Sana ki haton day khoon nikalna to bandh ho chuka tha par
Sid kay shirt may abhi bhi khoon kay dhabbe nazar aa rahe the.

Ghar lautnay kay baad say Sid Sana ka bohot khayal rakh raha tha.Sana iss waqt baith kay TV dekh rahi thi aur Sid usko khana khila raha tha.
Sid:Mu kholo
Sana:Hmm...
Sid:Sana jaldi say khana khalo phir tumhe medicines bhi leni hay na?
Sana:Ha ha bass 2 minute yeh drama dekhlu bohot maze ka hay yeh.
Sid:Tumhe har drama maze ka hi lagta hay. Sana please jaldi say khalo warna thik kaise hogi?
Sana: Achcha baba do Aa..Usne muh khola to Sid nay uske mu may niwale dal diya.

Iss room kay TV bhi off tha aur Sid ek khali bowl say khana laike kisiko khila raha tha lekin uske samne to koi bhi nehi tha.Natasha abhi darwaze pay khari thi.Woh yaha Sid say ek bohot important baat karne aayi thi.Usay laga Sid kisisay baat kar raha hay.
Nats:Sidharth...
Uski awaz say Sid aur Sana dono nay iski taraf dekha.
Sana:Yeh phirsay aa gayi 😠😠😠
Sid:Oh Hi Natasha,How are you?
Nats:I'm fine
Sana:Sidhaaarth isse baat maat karo please mujhe yeh nehi pasand.Ise nikalo ghar say.
Nats:Sid tum abhi kissay baat kar rahe the?
Sid:Kisi say bhi to nehi ha woh phone aaya tha ek,He lied.
Sana:Arey jhut kyu bol rahi ho?Mujhsay baat kar raha hay.May hu yaha pay dikhta nehi tumhe? Chalo ab niklo...Sid ki nazar say woh Natasha ko dhakke mar rahi thi to woh Natasha ko girne say bachanay kay lie dusri taraf khicha par Natasha gir gayi.
Nats:Aaa...Dhakka kyu mara mujhe?
Sana:Ha ha ha gir gayi.
Sid:Nats i'm sorry utho.Usney haat aage barhaya aur Natasha uska haath pakar kay uth hi raho thi ki Sid nay bich may hi uska haath chor dia aur woh wapas gir gayi. Kyun ki Sid ko laga Sana Natasha ki taraf folder phek kay maar rahi hay to woh Sana ko rok raha tha.
Nats: Sidhaaaarth...Natasha iss waqt shadeed gussay may thi.Tum pagal to nehi ho chuke.
Sana: Pagal kisko bolaa.. Pagal hogi tu.
Nats:May yaha dad kay kehne pay tumse humari shadi ki baat discuss karne aayi thi par aab mujhe tumse koi baat hi nehi karni.
Sid:Shadi?Humari?Sid was surprised hearing this.
Sana:Kya Sidharth tum iss Natasha churail say shadi karogi?Nehiiiiiii
Natasha gusse may waha say chali gayi aur Sid filhal Sana ko chup karanay may busy tha joki iss waqt chilla chilla kay ro rahi thi.

Sana:Tum issay shadi karoge?Mera kya hoga phir?
Sid:May nehi kar raha shadi usse.Mujhe nehi pata woh kya keh rahi hay.
Sana:Nehi tum ussisay shadi karoge mujhe pata chal gaya.Tum mujhse pyar nehi karte aa.....
Sid:Aisa tumse kisne kaha?You know I love you.
Sana:Promise karo tum ussay shadi nehi karoge. Kisikay bhi kehnay par nehi dadi kahe tab bhi nehi.
Sid:I Promise I won't marry her.Ab jake Sana thori chup huyi.