[COMPLETED] hermitcraft oneshots & drabbles

I'm still in love with you [Angst | Scarian]

songfic angst? again? but with scarian? heck yeah uwu

also if you haven't seen the title change, i now also post drabbles here! :D hope you guys don't mind, i'm just throwing everything hermitcraft related here

triggers/warning: uhhhhhh heartbreak? yeah heartbreak, unrequited love? woooooo

song: happier by ed sheeran (I started the lyrics near the end of the song)

ship: scarian, mild scar and ren

wc: over 800

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Sat on the corner of the room

Grian admired Scar's village from a far, staring helplessly down into the jungle, the midnight sky casting shadows down above him. He shifted in his seat on top of the jungle tree, propping one leg up so he could rest his arm. His other leg swayed under him, the distance between him and the ground seemed to torment him.

He noticed two figures down below past the leaves, peering cautiously through the vines. Laughter erupted from the two, echoing around the jungle surrounding them. Scar's wizard hat flopped to the side as he laughed with Ren, the latter's sunglasses sliding off the bridge of his nose. 

Everything's reminding me of you

789 days since Grian officially joined Hermitcraft. 

137 days since Grian found out just how hard he fell for the guy. 

137 days since he realized he was in love.

Every interaction he's had with Scar, every conversation he's cherished, just everything about Scar made his heart pound in his chest.

But he let go.

Nursing an empty bottle and telling myself you're happier

He had Scar once, he took their love for granted, and he paid dearly for his mistakes. The laughter, the love, the tears, the screams. All was in the past now. He couldn't change the past, no matter how much he wanted to.

He wanted nothing more than have the ability to call Scar his again, to be able to love him with no boundaries, to just love him once more. To hold him close, to be there at his darkest moments, to have a life with him.

To get a second chance.

Aren't you? 

The moment they parted, Grian knew he had messed up. He knew that he had just wasted his only shot at love, and he had no way of getting it back. He could have gone back, into the loving arms of Scar, but he didn't. He left, and he didn't realize his mistake until it was too late.

He should have trusted his gut, he should have stayed. Nothing else could compare with the love he felt for Scar. Nothing could beat the feeling of being loved for who you are, not what others see.

Instead, he let him move on. He'd be happier, without him. At least, that's what he's telling himself.

Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you

"Dance with me?"

Grian looked up to find Scar standing in front of him, hand extended towards him. 10 minutes to midnight and he still hasn't danced once. The couples would come and go on the dance floor, making the empty feeling in his chest grow bigger with every passing moment. 

The sound of laughter and chatter reached his ears, pulling him back down to reality. He opened his mouth to reply, to tell Scar that he'd be fine without a dance. But what came out of his mouth surprised the both of them. 

"Sure."

But ain't nobody need you like I do

With how much time they spend stargazing with each other, it had become sort of "their thing." Watching the stars slowly go by the world in orbit, a few shooting stars whizzing by here and there. 

Hand in hand, laying side by side, tension and stress leaving their bodies. Basking in absolute bliss, a surreal feeling that's too good to be true... 

"I love you."

"And I love you."

I know that there's others that deserve you

"I love you..." Scar called out from behind Grian, making the latter freeze in his step.

Grian turned around, a hard gaze locked on his face. Tears rolled down his cheeks, his eyes glazed.

"And I loved you."

Tears were rapidly flowing down his face at this point, and he made no attempt to stop them. He took a step forward, narrowing his eyes down into a glare.

"Everything I've done for this, this relationship, was for you. And this is what you repay me with? First you take advantage of me, then you claim you love me when you've been caught in the act. Do you love me or not? Make up your goddamn mind, because I'm done."

"G... I'm sorry, please-"

"No. I trusted you. I trusted you to love me when I needed you the most. But where were you Scar?" He held back a sob, his voice cracking as it lowered down into a whisper. "Where were you when I needed you the most?"

But my darling,

"I swear it was an accident. Trust me when I say that. I'm s-sorry." Scar choked out, covering their mouth with their hands to muffle the sob that was itching up their throat. "I'm sorry."

"Sorry?" Grian scoffed, approaching Scar slowly. "Yeah, I'm sorry too."

"I loved you, so much. But you seem happier without me." He turned on his heel, hastily wiping the tears from his eyes. He shoved his hands into his pockets, walking away swiftly from Scar's snail. He could hear a sob from behind him, the sound alone breaking his heart into a million pieces. 

He shouldn't have let go.

I am still in love with you.