Flame [h.s.]

05| Lush life

It was a crush
Now I might have went and said too much
But that's all it was
So I gave it up

Olivia

"You are no fun." I pout when I lose the quick game, we pulled off to find out which one of us would be the designated driver for the night. Turns out it is me, which means no drinking for me tonight.

That's a bummer.

Don't get me wrong, I know how to have fun without alcohol, but I still prefer to have some of it running through my organism just to make things easier. I hate those people who tell you 'do you need alcohol to have fun?' well I do, so sue me.

"You lost, Liv. You are never the one to take the car, one day it had to be you." Theo tells me and I have to agree with him.

I never took my car on a night out but that's mostly because I already came in drunk so obviously, they had to choose someone else. Oh, and the fact that my car has only two seats basically excludes me from taking it on a night out. But tonight we were taking Jane's car to the club so my plan failed.

It was a smart tactic but tonight I didn't have the chance to drink before I came here. Not my smartest choice. This is what I get for being a good student and spend the afternoon catching up with university assigments.

"But it's a shame, you are fun to be around when drunk." Theo winks at me and I roll my eyes dramatically hoping he understands how I am not in the mood for him.

"I'm fun drunk or sober, I'm the full package honey." I say standing up from the sofa just to get away from him. I head towards the window so I can take a smoke. I could do it in the middle of the living room but some fresh air will be welcomed. This small apartment is too packed, there are simply too many people here.

But as I make my way towards a window, Theo decides to follow me which I am not in the mood for.

So... Theo is my ex-boyfriend.

Well, I wouldn't call him an ex-boyfriend but it is the best definition I have for him. Maybe ex sometimes current friends with benefits? It's a mess I know.

During the first semester at university last year, he tried for months to get together with me. At first, I enjoyed the attention he was giving me, as Theo is a good-looking guy, but when I decided to give him a chance it just didn't work for us. I think he was expecting something else from me, like a relationship that I was not ready to be a part of and didn't want to give him that part of myself either.

Theo was just too immature, and it was impossible to keep a decent conversation with him for long. All he cared about was football and partying, and as much as I love partying too, it is nice to be able to talk to someone about something other than that.

And do you know what didn't last long with him? Yes, exactly what you are thinking.

But we kept messing around mostly because I didn't have anything more interesting to do. I also didn't find any other guy interesting enough to tempt me, so I just stuck with Theo. But one time he decided it would be a good idea to introduce me to his family and it was at that moment I decided that whatever we had between us had to end. He was clearly one step ahead of me, and that didn't sit well with me.

We are still part of the same friend's group and that doesn't bother me at all, but sometimes he gets annoying, especially when he is drunk like tonight. But he won't get lucky tonight because there is no chance I am sleeping with him while I am sober. Maybe if I was drunk I would fall into his trap.