Flame [h.s.]

18| Don't call me up

I'm over you and I don't need your lies no more
'Cause the truth is, without you, boy, I'm stronger
And I know it's sad that I changed, have a cold heart
But it was your game that left scars
Ooh, I'm over you

Olivia

This was the first time in my life I was rejected, and it hurt like hell.

But Harry is so damn confusing, I really thought he was on the same page as me, but clearly, I was wrong. The jealous look on his face when he was talking about Theo, trying to hide it, failing completely was the incentive I needed to take a chance on him.

He let me get closer to him, we were so close I never thought he would back up on the last minute. So I went for it, I gained the courage needed and I tried to kiss him. Maybe I wouldn't do it if I didn't have some liquid courage running through my veins, but it just felt right at that moment. We were so close, I could feel his lustful stare on my lips, how he reacted to my touch.

All for nothing.

"A glass of water please." I ask leaning against the counter after I left the staff room. For a moment I think Harry will come out of it and pull me back inside and kiss me at last, but unfortunately, that doesn't happen. I'm here alone on this loud pub, embarrassed to the pub for probably having ruined my friendship with Harry.

What was I thinking? He would magically forget about how he was married and engage in a make-out session with me in the staff room? For me this situation is very straightforward, I have nothing to lose by kissing him. Harry, on the other hand, has a lot to lose if he just kissed me.

At least he could have not let me act stupid, he could have stopped me sooner.

I'm so stupid sometimes, I should have learned the first time.

"Liv?" A hand is placed on my back causing me to jump scared. For a moment I think it might be Harry but that hope soon vanishes when I realize it is Theo who is standing behind me.

Harry was trying to hide it, but it was very obvious he was jealous of Theo, mostly because just a few minutes ago we were dancing together. It was a friendly dance, I had already danced with Jane and even with her almost but not boyfriend yet Marcus. Theo was actually very funny tonight and for the first time in a while, I was having a good time with him.

If Harry doesn't want to kiss me, then why did he act all strange just with the mention of Theo?

And they say women are complicated, have they even seen men?

"Yes?" I sigh not in the mood to talk, actually, I would love to get out of here right now.

"Are you alright? I saw you storming out of the staff room." Of course he saw me, I'm sure he had his eyes glued to the door waiting for the moment I would get out.

"I'm good." I shrug.

"What happened?" Theo whispers in my ear probably without any second intentions, it's very loud in here and I can barely hear a word he says.

"Nothing."

What am I supposed to tell him? Oh you know, I tried to kiss a married man and he rejected me, isn't it nice?

The last thing I want is to have people suspect that there is something going on between Harry and me, which there isn't. He is married and I can't forget that news travel fast. If his wife dreamed I just spent the last fifteen minutes in a room alone with her husband and how I tried to kiss him, she would have cut my head off at this point.