Flame [h.s.]

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Nice to meet you, where you been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
Saw you there and I thought
Oh my God, look at that face
You look like my next mistake
Love's a game, wanna play?

Olivia

Cute dress on, light makeup on point, hair perfectly waved check.

I run through my mental checklist before I exit my house to crash my brothers' lunch which he still hasn't invited me. I thought he would at least send me a text during the week asking if I wanted to come over this weekend, but that message never got to me.

I don't blame him, I don't know if I would like to have my younger sister always around me when I simply wanted to be with my friends. Too bad I don't care about his opinion, and if Harry is going, I'm also going.

I wasn't expecting Harry to end up having dinner with me the other night, but I have to admit I was quite happy about it. I feel like we are getting closer each day, I truly see him as a great friend. He listens attentively when I am speaking, he gives great advice and I also know he trusts me, otherwise he would never confide me about the arguments he has with his wife, or about his insecurities.

Wednesday night after we had dinner and I showed him my house, Harry helped me doing the dishes before we head out of my apartment to the pub where the theme of the night was eighties love ballads. It was such a great night, he sang so passionately about everything, I could listen to him sing for the rest of my life. His voice was so gentle and soothing, it truly was the perfect evening.

After that, he drove me home and I thought about inviting him in, but I didn't want to sound desperate so I ended up going up alone, dreaming about him the whole night. 

And just let me tell you I woke up all sweaty and out of breath.

As I am about to leave my house, I hear the phone ring inside my purse which I quickly take out, pondering for a few seconds not answering it. 

What does she want?

Seconds before the call is going to end, I decide to pick it up after a short internal debate. I haven't spoken to my mom in a while now, and I know how upset she gets when I constantly decline her calls. Her next step would be to contact Caleb and beg him to talk to me.

I'm just trying to avoid another lecture from both my mom and my brother.

"Hello?" I answer really not in the mood for this conversation.

"Finally Olivia, haven't you seen my calls?" I roll my eyes at the tone she uses to talk to me.

I think my mom resents me for maintaining a good relationship with my dad, not that I would call it a good relationship when he is always away travelling, but at least he isn't constantly judging me or complaining about everything I do. I don't blame my mom for being upset at my dad, but they divorced a long time ago, she should just move on like he did.

Or maybe she just resents all the bad decisions I have made on the short nineteen years I have been on this planet. I gave her much more headaches than my brother has ever given her, I'm well aware of that.

"Sorry I have been busy." I shrug locking my door as I struggle to do everything with only one hand.

"How's university going? Have you done any assignments yet?" I can almost imagine her at home right now, on the garden as she has a black coffee before she decides to start working. My mom is a teacher, that's why sometimes I think she behaves the same way both in her school as she does at home.