Finding my Happiness

Stuck Together

"Daddy!" I shout in the darkness. Walking in the pitch black Ossis of my dream, I search frantically for my dad. Suddenly, I feel a wetness on my bare feet. It startles me once I notice it's blood. I look into the distance and see the trail of blood leading to my dad slumped over in his truck. My breathing becomes more harsh as I began to run towards him.
" Daddy!" Tears fill in my eyes clouding my vision. As I keep running the farther away he becomes. I feel so helpless. The faster I run, the farther he becomes. Tears flow down my face harder. Then the image of my dad changes into my grandma in the hospital bed. "Grandma?!" She's in the hospital bed with the heart monitor going off and suddenly the heartbeat line goes dead. Out of the darkness a doctor comes to check her pulse. He then takes the sheet and puts it over her head.
" No!" I shout as the image fades away and goes back dark. I search frantically around for a way out of this darkness. As I'm running , I run into almost what feels like a brick wall, but it's a person. I tumble backward on my butt and I look up too see this tall muscular man in front of me. He steps out of the shadows and it's Reggie. My body begins to shake at the sight of him.
"Hey baby, why are you so scared of me? I'm not gonna hurt you." He tries to grab me up from the floor leaning down but I slap the shit out of him. After I slapped him, I scoot back bracing for the aftermath of my actions. His face turns into a mean glare while clenching his jaw. " YOU FUCKING BITCH!" He lunges at me as I try to run away but he grabs me by the ankles and pulls me toward him.
"Let me go Reggie!" But he doesn't listen to me. I feel his dirty hands all over me and him trying to pull my pants off. " You're gonna fucking take this shit!" He says forcing my clothes off. I sob so loud I can tell it's irritating him so he balls his fist up and knocks me out cold.

I frantically wake up at the sound of a knock on my door. Sweat is rolling down my face and my curls stuck on my forehead. My heartbeat feels like it's going to jump out of my chest. Looking over my shoulder, alarm clock flashes 8:30 am. For a split second I thought I was late for work but it's Saturday my day off. Knocking persists again and a soft but child like voice talks behind the door.
" Jazz! Are you up?! We have a situation!" J5 says as he continues to knock on the door.
" Yeah give me a second!" I shout throwing the covers off my soaking body. The images of my dream flash in my mind clouding my vision so bad I bump into my table and lamp, making it fall over.
" Hurry up it's important!" He exclaims again banging on my door even harder. Whatever the issue is, it better be important. Sometimes I wonder if I go to sleep one night all this shit in my imagination will go away, Or will we be stuck together forever? I make it to my door swinging it open with my eyes landing on J5 jumping up and down like he has ants in his pants.
" Thank Goodness! We have a problem!" J5 says jumping even higher now.
" What's wrong?" He grabs my hand and yanks me out of the room making  me and him run down the hallway.
" Follow me!" He says urgently. I swear this boy is fast. I can't keep up.
" J5 slow the fuck down boy! What's the prob-"  We make it around the corner and I couldn't even finish my sentence when I see the Michael's in line for the bathroom.
" Look!" He says as we come to a halt and he points at the situation in hand. The other Michael's turn their attention to me doing the same little dance J5 was doing at my door. " Oh good morning Jazz!" They all say in unison.
"Good morning guys... um so what's the problem?"
I say looking around for answers.
" Darryl has been in the bathroom forever!" Vince says as he bangs on the bathroom door again.
" Darryl Hurry up! We all have to pee." He pleads again.
" Jazz can you do something? I'm really about to pee my pants!" James says. His face looks like his in so much pain.
I walk up to the bathroom door and start banging on it.
" Hey twinkle toes! Get out of the bathroom or imma beat yo ass!" I say trying to sound threatening.
Then the door knob jiggles and then Darryl pokes his head out the door. The most adorable but yet annoying smile is spread over his face.
" Well Good Morning Jazz! How are you this fine morning?" He asks like there is no rush in the world.
" Are you kidding me? We have been waiting here forever!" Billy says.
" Well excuse me for having to take a shit." Darryl says as he walks out of the bathroom. Vince is about to go in next but J5 quickly runs in front of him and into the bathroom shutting and locking the door.
" J5! Get your ass out here! I was next!" Vince groans as the rest of them groan along with him.
"Look if you guys need to use the bathroom just go in my room." After my comment, they all make a run for it to my room. " Move out of my way! I'm next!" Prince exclaims pushing all the other Michael's out of the way. I watch them make it around the corner while Darryl walks up and starts to talk to me.
" So about last night...." he starts off by saying rubbing his arm. I can tell he's embarrassed about what happened last night cause he's definitely a different person now.
" Yeah, what about last night?" I fold my arms over my chest.
He walks over closer to me and looks down like a sad puppy dog.
" I'm sorry that I acted the way I did... I guess I was just frustrated about everything. I mean I'm in a strange place and time.... I have doubles of myself walking around... it's just overwhelming. And I apologized to Michael this morning so I just want to apologize to you now."
His apology does feel sincere. The look on his face is just asking for me to forgive him.
" Why should I forgive you?"
" Because you're like my biggest fan and you love me?" He says with that beautiful smile appearing back on his face.
" Yeah ok twinkle toes." I softly laugh.
" So is that my new nickname?" He asks arching a eyebrow.
"Only when you piss me off." I say punching him lightly in the chest.
" Well I'll try to stay out of your way Miss Jazzy." He says punching me back in the arm as he walks past me on his way down the stairs. Darryl feels like he'll be the brother I've always wanted. Growing up an only child fucking sucked. I wanted someone to fight with and feel protected when someone was threatening me. I mean am I wrong that it's an added bonus that he's fine just like Danny? I mean they are all cute and attractive, it's fucking Michael Jackson I'm talking about here.
My fear begins to set in now out of the blue. The fear of these guys disappearing one day makes my depression creep back on me. Even if they aren't really here, at least in my mind this house doesn't feel so lonely.