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its all my fault! (TokoShoji)

(DISCLAIMER:     this is about to be some real angst. if you cant take it dont read it)

Tokoyami POV:

me and the emo squad are hanging out in my room when the alarm goes off.

we all run out, ready for action, to see everyone else on my floor had done the same thing. we all run towards the stairs and get down them as quickly as possible.
we look out of the front window to see all the heroes on sight fighting about twice as many villains.

"come on we need to help the pros!" midoriya shouts (happy birthday mido!!) and several of our classmates agree with him. we run out of the dorms and over to the fight.
with another 20 added to the side of the pros, the villains are almost matched in number.
we all start fighting.
i call on Dark Shadow to help me, fighting a villain.
i soon have him knocked out as another comes over to fight.

this goes on for about 15 villains, them all ending up knocked out. at some point me and shoji had come back to back fighting villains.
around an hour later, all but one villain were knocked out.
Overhaul.
i watch as he aims a gun at me, shooting twice. i'm frozen in fear.

i feel it. two small needles pierce my skin.

i think nothing of it, and watch as he gets knocked out by Bakugo.

around five minutes later i feel....

a sudden...

emptiness.

like something that was there before had left me.

"w-wait..." i mumble out to myself, feeling a sudden ache in my chest.
"dark shadow..?" i call out, loud enough for several of my classmates to hear me
"d-dark shadow!" i call again, even louder than before
i then realise what must have happened..
"no... no!" i shout as i fall to my knees.
i let out a loud, long scream, hoping that dark shadow will hear me and come back...
i hear somebody come up behind me but i ignore it. then one of the needle-like things that overhaul shot me with are pulled out of my side.

i let out aloud sob and cry into my knees.

i get pulled into somebody's arms. i dont know who, but i grasp onto their shirt and cry my heart out. i cry and scream and sob until my voice is gone and there are no tears left to cry.
"tokoyami..?" i hear the voice of my teacher, and i nod, trying to regain my composure.

i struggle for a few seconds before completely breaking down again.
"is this what you all feel like?" i cry out "i feel so empty! so alone!"
i clutch onto my chest where Dark Shadow would usually leave at the front.
i wipe my face and look around, desperately searching for my boyfriend. i dont spot him until i see a tall figure running towards me. i blink a few times and my vision clears up.
he drops to his knees beside me and i fall into his embrace.
"quirk erasing bullets, mezo." i whisper into him and he nods, understanding what's going on.

i think about what just happened and it dawns on me..
"this was my fault... i didnt get out of the way of the bullets- why are you here comforting me when its my own fault?!"
"because, fumi, i know that you and Dark Shadow where two halves of one whole." my boyfriend tells me and i break down into sobs once more, tears no longer falling from my eyes.
i deserve this...
its my own fault...
"its all my fucking fault!" i scream into him, holding onto him for dear life. as though i might lose him, too, if i let go.

he scoops me up in his arms and i let him, feeling safe. i know that as soon as he leaves me even for a minute i will break down again.
"theres a hole inside of me mezo, where dark shadow used to live..." i whisper "and now it will just sit, empty, for the rest of my life"

"and its all my fault..."
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692 words, sorry its a short one. there will be a part 2 with a happy ending for those who like a happy ending in angst