The Wedding

Chapter 8: A Simple Conversation

Catra's POV

"Yeah sure Catra." I take her hand we walk away from the group and find a secluded spot. We both sit down, "What do you want to talk about?"

"There's something I have been wanting to tell you about for a long time. I just didn't know how and I thought I could handle it on my own." I wait for her to say something but she doesn't. She grabs my hand and holds it. I take a deep breath and begin. 

"The reason I have been so distant from you is that I am dealing with some stuff. Well, a lot of stuff. I have ever since you rescued me from Prime's ship and took the chip out of me. I still feel like it's there though Adora. I feel like all this is some sick illusion that Prime is making and that one moment he is going to take it all away. Take you away. When I was chipped that's what he would do. He would get into my head and find things that made me happy and would take them from me. He would play memories in my head of us as kids and I would hear his voice saying that it was all a lie. That you were a lie and never cared for me. He knew I loved you Adora. He would use you against me. He would play images of the future I wanted. I would picture us living together and having a family of our own. And soon as I got comfortable he would take it away. Sometimes he would make you vanish out of thin air, sometimes he would make you die and I would be there holding you as you died, other times he would turn you against me saying you hated me and never loved me. It all hurt, each time. When you found me and broke the chip I wasn't sure it was really you. I figured it was another illusion and that he was just waiting to take you away from me again. Sometimes I still think that. I know he is gone, but he haunts me Adora. I can't sleep anymore. I dream of him torturing me again. I dream that I am still chipped. And I am so sorry." At this point I am bawling. My eyes are like faucets that can't turn off. 

"I am so sorry I didn't tell you before. I couldn't get comfortable because then if it was Prime, you be gone. I didn't want you think I was crazy or weak or broken so I kept it to myself and ended up hurting you." 

"Catra..." She takes my head in her hands and looks me in the eyes, "Catra I am here and I am never going to leave you. I love you. You're not broken or crazy. Please don't think that. I knew you were struggling and I wanted to help so badly, but I knew if I pushed you would end up leaving. Thank you for telling me. I am so sorry you have been going through this alone." She kisses me and pulls me into her arms. My head is resting on her chest. I start to relax into her arms as a warm feeling overwhelms me. I feel safe. 

I finally stop crying. "Adora?" 

"Yeah Catra?'

"I know this isn't how I'm supposed to ask but..." I pause really thinking about what I am going to ask. A moment of doubt creeps through my head at the thought of if this is another Horde Primes joke. I toss it out of my head. He can't control me anymore. "Adora, will you marry me?"

She tilts my head up to meet hers as she is smiling "Nothing would make me happier. I love you Catra. Yes, yes I will marry you." She kisses me softly.

A/N  WOOO they're engaged now! It took awhile to get to this point, but I thought it was only natural for them to be able to get through some hurt that was caused before being able to jump straight into a wedding.